Thursday, December 29, 2011

December 29,2011

My dearest sweet Tommy,

Yesterday was not such a good day....I know you already know that and I promise to you and the kids to be stronger.....I love you and the kids more than anything in the world....Sometimes I let things get to me....Bother me in way that I guess I shouldn't but sometimes I cannot help it....

I hear people laughing and talking to their spouse and I get angry....Not at them, not at you, just angry because I wish you were here...Does that make sense?

Sometimes I feel like I don' t know what to do next....This is the hardest thing in the world I have ever dealt with....I feel so empty and heartbroken.....The pain is always so bad....How does it get better with time?

Well the most important thing is I pray that you, Shae, and Erik know how much I love you guys and nothing will ever change that...I pray that everything gets better for us....The pain, the worry of everyday life, just everything works out for us....I know with you by our side it will....

I love you my babes and I love our kids.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik