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Sunday, September 30, 2012

A day closer....


My dear precious husband Tommy,

A day closer to the one year anniversary....It is going to be so hard for me to deal with this.....I want you here and need you so bad...

I will take Wendsler's advice and that is to pray....He is very special to me....The former Chairman for the San Carlos Apache Tribe...He is a dear friend to me....One I will always cherish.....
Wendsler at Fort Bowie

Praying will help me to get through...I know it will...It is the only thing we need...The Creator will help us through everything.....I so appreciate everything that I have in my life and that I have had...It will all work out.....

I know you are with me Tommy...You always are.....

I love you my precious husband....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Getting Closer.....


My dear precious husband Tommy,

The one year anniversary of your passing is getting closer....It is going to be so hard....Your birthday on October 3rd then your passing on October 4th........Just don't know how to deal with it....

On your birthday I will keep to our tradition of one real red rose....To show we are one.... but also the kids and I are going to release a "Happy Birthday" balloon so it can travel to heaven to you....

Then on the day of your passing we are going to release another balloon that is shaped like a heart.....Just to say we love and miss you so much....I know you already know that but this way I hope will help us through these days.....

We love you and will forever hold you in our hearts....Please help us through the hard times coming up.....We just need you to hold it all together and show us the way........

I love you my dear husband...Forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Friday, September 28, 2012

Life's discoveries.......


My dear precious husband Tommy,

Life's discoveries are strange at times, welcoming at other times.....Life is so short and everybody should live their live as good as they can....I know I try and treasure every moment...I want to share with everybody something....This is how much I treasured the love my husband gave me....

I have every flower, love letter, and every little note my precious Tommy wrote to me since we met....I treasure each and every one of them.....I am so thankful I kept them.....I will keep them always.....I love him more than anything and always will.....

People cannot believe I have those things since 1986 but I do...I kept everything....He means that much to me. Always has and always will.....I love him so much and my heart is so empty without him......

Well my babes, I love you.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Life's Journey......


My dear precious husband Tommy,

Life's Journey has been very hard for me this past year....Losing you is still not real to me....It's as if you are gone somewhere but will be back....Nobody can understand this....I feel a pain so deep I cannot focus.....I know you are here with me......

The song that my phone plays when somebody sends me a message just went off and there was no message there....I know this is you sending me a message saying you are here and that you love me......

I love you too my precious husband...You are everything to me....You always have been and always will be.....

I love you my husband....Forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Dreams and things......


My dear precious husband Tommy,

My dreams of you help me so much. You are there just like always guiding me through the hard times. I love you more than anything in the world. In my dreams we are together but it is also different. You make sure I understand the most important message. That you are with me always.

I have been crying a lot lately. Yesterday I was at the local library and was checking out their books for sale and suddenly a book by Medium Allison DuBois stood out to me. I thought Wow look at this. The title of the book is "We Are Their Heaven" A book I needed so bad at this moment.

It details how our loved ones are with us because we loved ones are left behind so we are their heaven. I truly believe that. Thank you Allison DuBois for all you do. You are an amazing person and you are truly appreciated.

So now I know my dreams with you in them are the most important messages. I will cherish each and every one.

I love you my precious husband....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

If I could move mountains......


My dear precious husband Tommy,

If I could move mountains you would be by my side....You are my life and my soul....I miss you so much and wish I could bring you back to me.. I am sure other families feel the same way about their love ones....It is the hardest thing in the world to deal with.....

My heart is reaping with pain....I want to scream so loud for the whole world to know just how much I love and miss you....Nobody knows what I am going through...My heart is so filled with sadness....

All I know is that you are with me in spirit Tommy and I am so happy for that....I know you will always be with me, loving and protecting me as always......

I love you my precious husband.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Monday, September 24, 2012

Missing you so much....


My dear precious husband Tommy,

I miss you so much...Nobody can ever understand.....It is a pain deep in my heart that will not go away....I feel so alone at times...I miss you and our talks....I miss us just sitting and watching TV together....There are some shows I can't watch cause the pain is so great......I want you here to watch them with me......

How does it get better with time....How?.....I don't see it happening.....I will miss you today as I will miss you in two years....Nothing can change that....nothing.....I know there is nothing I can do to bring you back or I would have you beside me now.......I just wish I could......

How do you describe the pain I feel? You can't for its a pain that dwells deep in my heart and nothing can change it.....Nothing can stop it.....Nothing at all.....

I love you my precious husband.....Forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Sunday, September 23, 2012

What we have been doing.....


My dear precious husband Tommy,

Well I wanted to share with you what the kids and I have been doing.....Yesterday Erik went with a friend to the Roosevelt Area for a look at the lower dwellings of long ago....Here are some photos of it.....





Shae and I went to watch "The House at the End of the Street" and here is a picture of Shae before we left....She is so pretty and her daddy's girl.....


We had fun as you can see and I know you were there with each of us....Sharing in the fun as you always do...We love and miss you my precious husband.....

I love you more than anything in the world.....Forever....

Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Love is always there.......


My dear precious husband Tommy,

Your love is always there...I feel it no matter what I do....You are always with me and I am so thankful.....I miss you so much......

You are my life and forever will be.....You always knew what to say and do.....I feel you in my presence always....You are my everything.....

I just need to say that I love you my babes...You are forever in my heart....You are my soul mate....My life....My everything.......

I love you my precious husband....Forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Friday, September 21, 2012

Soul Mates......


My dear precious husband Tommy,

Soul mates....that is us....You are my life...Always have been...always will be...Now if people would just learn what they have before its too late....I know I am thankful we figured out what was important in our lives....I miss you more than anything in the world.....

I think of you every second....You are on my mind always....I need you so much...Words cannot explain...Please be with us and protect us.....Let everything be okay....No matter what happens make everything okay....Just like soul mates do......We are one and always will be.....

We were always there for each other no matter what...If somebody tried to start trouble we banded together and never would let nothing tear us apart....We believed each other instead of other peoples lies....

We showed each other unconditional love no matter what was going on....We were one and always will be...

I love you my precious husband....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Loving you forever......


My dear precious husband Tommy,

I will love you forever....My heart bleeds for your touch.....your voice....just you....What can I do.....I miss you so much...My heart is broken....I love you more than anything in the world.....

I am having problems with my blood pressure....Its high...I don't know why other than worrying about the anniversary of your passing.....I don't know how to deal with it....I hope I can....I know you will be with us but it is going to be so hard.....

My doctor increased my meds and I have to go see him on Wednesday......I just miss you so much....I cry myself to sleep.....I love you Tommy so very much....Words cannot explain how I feel.....

I love you my husband.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Another day without you......


My dear precious husband Tommy,

My heart is so lonely and I feel so much pain.....I had a bad headache last night and I know its because of all the stress of the one year anniversary of your passing......Its going to be hard....I really don't know if I can handle it.......I know you will be there to help me through it....Also, I know the kids will hold me and help me through it too.....

I hold you in my heart....You will forever be my husband....My soul mate...My love....Nothing can ever change that....I know you will wait for me in Heaven even if it takes a hundred years for me to join you....

You are forever in my soul....I love you my husband.....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik