My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


You are so missed....Nobody will ever understand just how much....You are the love our my life and always will be....I will always love you more than anything.....

I miss you and your tender touch...the way you could always make me feel better...the way you would tell me how much you love me....and you always were there for us.....

You are the most amazing man I have ever known....You know how to rock my boat....You always did and always will...Please visit me in my dreams and talk with me....Letting me know how you what you think about everything....

You will always be in my heart and soul....


I love you.....forever....


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 30, 2012

To my dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Another day without you here breaks my heart into....I don't think it will ever get any easier....You are the core to my being....I try so hard but yet the emptiness that resides in my soul just lingers.....

There is a void that nobody can ever fill.....You are the reason for everything I do....You showed me love....You showed me what it was like for a person to have complete, unconditional love....

You are the reason I do what I do......Our kids know how much I love you and think of you....I cry everyday....I will for the rest of my life....The void will never be filled.....It can't unless it was you....I do feel you in spirit....I know you are with me..always.....

I love you my babes....forever!!!


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 12, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I truly love you my babes....I miss you every day.... When will it get better? You are always on my mind.....I speak your name everyday and it will never change.....

Love is something that is hard to find....I found it in you and now I will never let it go.....You showed me love and how to love....You showed me how to not forget but forgive.......You showed me how to love myself.....You showed me that it does not matter about others only about us......

You made me feel like a special somebody.....I can only say "Thank you my love" I know you are an angel in heaven watching over us......You will always be here with us until we can be together again.....

I know we will be together again and then we will have eternity together....We will share all our love again....We will share everything forever.....

I love you my babes......Forever!!!!


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 11, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I wonder if others understand my love for you? I don't think they can....They have no clue what true love is....So sad but I am thankful that I know what it's all about...

I wish you could be here sitting by me....I hear your voice speaking my name....It's as if you are the wind and you know my name....In one of our favorite movies "The Lost Child: Looking for Lost Bird" you loved the part where they were talking about the reservation and where she was taken off it and said that being on the reservation where, "the wind knows your name." Well that is how I feel...You are the wind blowing on my face and you know my name....

It helps me to think these types of things....Some people do not understand it or can even comprehend the concept of it....I know you do.....You stand with me when it comes to all things of the American Indian.....

Some of the pictures on your blog today is of Old San Carlos Monument on the San Carlos Apache Reservation...A very sacred and special place for the Apache People...We loved it there....

Well my babes I love you more each and every day....I always will...You are my life....Love you forever....


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shaelee, & Erik

March 10, 2012

Tommy's garden

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Life is so empty without you in it...I pray everyday to see and hear you.....I pray for you to come to me in my dreams....I want to hold you once again and tell you how much I love you....

Oak Flats

I know one day we will be together again....You will hold me in your arms as if we were never separated by this thing called time......You are my soul mate....My every breath...my life.....

My precious Tommy

You showed me strength and how to live life....You showed me that the only thing mattered was our life together...You made me realize that life is to short and you must live for now....I just wished you were here my love....

One of many sunsets that we shared

The pain never ceases in my heart....You are with me all the time....Nothing or nobody will ever change that.....My heart belongs to you....forever.....

At Oak Flats

We love and miss you every day....every minute....Forever....


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 4, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I cannot believe today is 5 months since you have crossed over into the spirit world....It's so hard to believe....I cannot hardly take that you are gone.....It's as if I would wake up and find you next to me....I have not felt good for a couple days and I know why....Missing you and knowing what today would bring.....Crying and a broke heart.....

I will hold you in my heart today and every day....I feel like I cannot go on sometimes but then I hear you and see our precious kids and that thought leaves as fast as it entered my mind...You are my life and always will be...

We took some pictures last night and of course there you were right above me...The ORB was following me around and it made me so happy...You are my life babes.....

The kids went to Rumsey Park....here are some pictures of them....They are so precious and they are our kids....Very proud of them both...

You make me happy and I know you will always be with me and the kids...I love you more than anything in the world....You are my life....my breath....my everything....

I love you with all my heart my sweet babes....


Your loving wife and kids.
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 28, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


You are on my mind.....Always and forever.....You are my heart and you keep me going strong....There are times I feel I can't go on......But then you come to me in spirit and push me on....

It has snowed some this morning....My writing class is tonight....I hope the snow doesn't get bad....But you know that I hate driving in the snow....You would laugh at me if I had to drive in snow because it would scare me so...I depended on you to help me through....I still do....

I will love you forever....I think of you all the time...You are in my heart and soul....You are the blood that flows through my veins....My every breath......I love you so very much and always will....

Well my babes I will talk to you later....I love you.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 27, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I am still missing you so much...I always think of you and dream of holding you...Always will...You are the love of my life....forever.....

My best friend and sister Beth is just amazing....She has helped me and I so thank her for that...She means so much to me....She always will.....Thank you Beth for everything.....

I long to hold you so close to me....To feel your presence and to speak your name...I long to see your face and hear your voice....That will never change....

I love you my precious loving husband Tommy....Forever......


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 26, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I hope you know how much I miss and love you...Sometimes you may do things you regret but you always told me that would happen...Life is not fair....You should be here with me...I love you please know that.....

You are my soul mate....I long to see your face....I know that one day I will again....Please wait for me....I love you so very much....Nobody knows the pain of losing.....what I mean is losing such a great husband as you.....

If only you could have stayed...My life would be so filled with happiness....I cry for you everyday...I always will....No matter what...Nothing can ever replace you.....Nothing....

Please just know the love I feel for you....always.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 22, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I miss you so very much....I know that time is all there is and I try and make the most of it....My writing class went very well.....I hope to help other writers.......

I pray that everything will be okay.....Sometimes I feel so alone.....The empty feeling is so hard at times.....I feel pain and sometimes I feel anger....I try not to be angry but I miss you so very much.....

What do you do to ease the pain? I don't have the answer but I talk to the Creator and ask him to guide me through the pain and anger I feel.....I just miss you so very much...You always stood with me and I had a shoulder to lean on....

It's hard dealing with life in general but without you it's even harder.....My heart weeps for you daily....Its so hard to understand why you had to leave but I don't question it.....I just wish you could have stayed......

Remember always my Tommy....I love you and please walk beside me everyday....every moment.....I need you....I love you with all my heart.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik