November 13, 2011

Tommy, I just wanted to say good morning and I love you....The days are empty without you in them but we realize that will be the way it is for us...We hope that everybody knows what a great man you were and still are....

Our sunset

You took great care of our daughter and that is something Shaelee will cherished forever......She tells me all the time that she feels your presence and I tell her I know so do I and that you will follow us where ever we go.....

Our sunset

Erik is turning into the man you wanted him to be.....He knows that our lives are forever changed.....The holidays will be the most difficult but we know you will be here......

Our sunset 

A person's shell is what keeps the spirit while they are here on earth but we know your spirit is here with us....We feel your presence and your open arms surrounding us at all times....We know whatever we need to say to you.....You are here and you listen and someway provide a way for us to know that...it could be a song or it could be something like a tense feeling of your presence.....But we know you are here......

Our sunset

We just want to say we love you and miss you more than anything....Our love will stand the test of time....It will always be present in everything that we do......You are the best husband and father and we are lucky and proud to have had you with us and we know you still are......We are so blessed....

Our sunset forever 

We love you forever........

Your wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 12, 2011

The sun rose again this morning and it is still the same.....I miss you more and more each passing day....Time will never heal the pain that I feel.....I know we shared a love that is rarely seen.....

I am reading a wonderful book titled, "Lessons from the Light" By medium George Anderson......I would highly recommend this book for anybody that has lost a loved one....especially a spouse or child......

I could barely put it down....It explores the "White Light" and goes into detail.....It has helped me more than anything.....I know my Tommy is okay and when he comes in my dreams he is visiting me to let me know he is okay and everything will be fine and that he is waiting on me.....

So life here on earth is just what it is......Each path on our journey is a learning lesson....Once all our lessons are learned then we die and cross over.......

Our sunset

Again, I still miss my precious husband.....I love him more than anything.....Always and forever.....

Flower for my Tommy

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 11, 2011

Today is Veteran's Day and I would like to say thank you to all the service men and women from my family to yours thank you......My husband's dad, Archie served in the Air Force and my precious husband and our family would have honored him today and all the other service men and women.....Now my Tommy is in heaven with his dad....

The holidays are approaching fast and the pain is only deepening......I dreamed of you last night my babes.....In the dream it was so real....You were sleeping and I shook you and you woke up and stared at me saying, 'Its okay"......I looked deep into your eyes as if searching for a message........I think you are telling me that its okay about what happened and to be strong and you are waiting for me........

The dream was so real.....It was as if you were here.........That this was all a nightmare........When I woke I was devastated to see that no it was not real.....you are not here and that was a dream and I strongly believe that you are telling me you are okay, everything will be okay, and that we will reunite and be a family again......

I must say it was so good to see your face and your deep provoking eyes settling in on me.....It was just as if you were telling me with your eyes that you love me and you were okay.....I love you with all my heart babes....You are in my heart, soul, and spirit.......

Here is a picture we took when we first got married....we wanted the world to know just how much we loved each other....I will wear my wedding band forever and I wear my precious husband's proudly on my necklace.....We are still married and that will never change....

Your loving wife and kids,

Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 10, 2011

Tommy I am going to try and have a better day today....It is so overwhelming and hard to believe that you are not here....I expect for you to walk in the door......How I wish you could.....I talk to you every morning.....every night....really all the time....I know you hear me and understand......

I would love to hear your voice...To hold your hand....To hear your laughter....but in my heart I can....
There is no easy road right now.....Shaelee misses you something terrible but she wants you to know she will take care of  me for you......and she loves you so........Erik is also looking out for me just as he promised......He loves you so too...  It is so hard to accept that you are not coming back......

I see other couples together and it makes me mad......We should have that time too....But I know the Creator knows best and I do not question that at all.......I just wish that is all that you were here and we would not be so sad......

I will get stronger just give me time.....It is hard and I will always cry.......One minute without you is to long....but I know you are in my heart and your spirit walks with us every step we take....

So, my dear, precious, loving husband, We love you more than anything or any words can explain.....We are soul mates, you and I.....Forever......

We love and miss you......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 9, 2011

Tommy the holidays are fast approaching....We dread them because you will not be here to share it with us....I know you will be here in spirit and we are thankful for that....We just long to see your face....The tears will not stop flowing...It does not get easier.....It gets harder.....

Our Sunset

We know that we must carry on but at times it is so difficult....People give advice all the time on what we should do or need to do.....There are only a couple of people who truly understand and that is Marta and Dove......They listen and understand......They can feel my loss...

So just wanted to let you know how I am feeling.....I want and need you to hold....You always made me feel better no matter what was going on....All you had to do was hug me and it made everything okay.......

Our sunset that we loved so much 

The kids miss you so much.....They even talked about the holidays and how hard it will be......
We know it going to be hard from here on out..... the pain of losing you proves things will not ever be the same....

We were suppose to grow old together and do things that we always talked about......It is so hard and I miss you and love you so much.....Please walk the path with me everyday so I can make it through.....

My precious husband I love you

I love you my precious, loving Tommy.....Forever I do.....      

Your loving wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 8, 2011

Today is another day without my precious Tommy.... He walks with us on our journey now......The Creator is in our hearts and he has provided for us and we are thankful.....

Your lake my babes

There are times in life you wonder about things but then you stop and think.....Life can be filled with many questions but the Creator knows best.....I know the Creator knows the type of love Tommy and I shared....and our love will continue throughout time...It will never cease.....It will grow stronger.....Everything I do is for my family.....

Our sunset

I will keep writing my books in dedication to my Tommy because he loved when I wrote....Tommy would say that my writing was important....He felt it will help people someday.....especially the American Indian....

Blood on the Feather Dedicated to my precious husband, Tommy

Journey to Christmas Creek- Dedicated to my wonderful husband, Tommy 

Native Spirit dedicated to my Tommy

So I will continue my writing in honor of my precious Tommy.......He will always be in our lives and he will never be forgotten......He knows how much we love him and we know how much he loves us.....So, we will reunite and be a family again.....but in our hearts we still are......

Love you with all my heart......

Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 7, 2011

Tommy, it is another day and I still do not know what to do or say....I miss you with everything in me....I know one day we will reunite.....

Nature

The days seem longer without you in them...whereas before it seemed like time slipped away from us.....Just know we love you so much and speak your name all the time....

Here is a poem that I had to share....

When tomorrow never comes.....

When tomorrow starts without me

And I'm not here to see if the sun should rise

And find your eyes all filled with tears for me

I wish so much you wouldn't cry

The way you did today

While thinking of the many things

We didn't get to say

I know how much you love me as much as I love you

And each time that you think of me

I know you'll miss me too

But when tomorrow starts without me

Please try to understand

That a spirit came and called my name

And took me by the hand and said my place was ready

In heaven far above

And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love

But as I turned to walk away a tear fell from my eye

For all my life I always thought I didn't want to die

I had so much to live for and so much yet to do

It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you

I thought of all the yesterdays to good ones and the bad

I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had

If I could re-live yesterday I thought for just awhile

I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile

But then I fully realized that this could never be

For emptiness and memories would take the place of me

So when tomorrow starts without me

Don't think we're far apart

For every time you think of me

I'm right here in your heart.

You will forever be in our hearts....Our love will continue til the end of time and then it will continue after that.......I am so thankful to the Creator for bonding us so closely......

We love you forever......                                          

Your wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik