November 26, 2011

Tommy,

Just wanted to say I love you.....We are really getting things packed now.....We only have a couple of days until the move....We cannot wait......The new place will be good for us.....I know you agree.....

Our sunset

The kids are excited about moving....They do not like it where we currently live...But how could they....The missing of you has done it for us here.....But I know you understand that and want us to move from here...We know you will be with us on this journey and you will like it there too.....

We shared good memories there in Payson....you and me.....we were there with your dad and we all loved it.....so I know this is the right thing and you also confirmed that in a dream....

For you, My Tommy

Shae loves it for sure because no more scorpions......I know that made you laugh.....Thank you for the love you gave us and still give to us.....We feel your presence and we know that you love us as we love you....
That will never change......

Love you forever....
Your wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 12, 2011

The sun rose again this morning and it is still the same.....I miss you more and more each passing day....Time will never heal the pain that I feel.....I know we shared a love that is rarely seen.....

I am reading a wonderful book titled, "Lessons from the Light" By medium George Anderson......I would highly recommend this book for anybody that has lost a loved one....especially a spouse or child......

I could barely put it down....It explores the "White Light" and goes into detail.....It has helped me more than anything.....I know my Tommy is okay and when he comes in my dreams he is visiting me to let me know he is okay and everything will be fine and that he is waiting on me.....

So life here on earth is just what it is......Each path on our journey is a learning lesson....Once all our lessons are learned then we die and cross over.......

Our sunset

Again, I still miss my precious husband.....I love him more than anything.....Always and forever.....

Flower for my Tommy

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 6,2011

A flower to represent our love

Well babes, another day without you....I will never get use to this....I miss our talks.....When something was bothering me you always knew and would say, "It will be okay. Don't let people get to you. All that matters is that we are here together and our kids are healthy and nobody shares the love we have." That would bring a smile to my face.....But you always could.....

Our sunset

The kids miss you so very much....There is a void, an emptiness like no other....Our lives has changed forever.....Please guide us and walk with us through this journey....

Nobody can understand what we are going through unless they have experienced it too....Our family...our love....is so unique....There is not a love like ours......

Beauty

So I take each day and try to breath....Try to write....Try to make sense of it all......But I know you are with the Creator and everything will be okay.....

Please stay with me everyday.....every minute......through everything.....

The book I am working on now is about our life together....How beautiful our time was.....It will continue even though you walk in the spirit world for our type of love is special and will never cease....

The title of the book is:    "Spirit Bound: Journey of a love that transcends all time."

Our wedding vows remain forever

I love you babes, forever


Your loving wife and kids,


Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 29, 2011

Yesterday I received my author's copies of "Journey to Christmas Creek" I was so pleased with the cover...
Dancing with Bear Publishing is the best publisher in the world.....The cover turned out great and the kids loved that fact, as do I, that Tommy is in the sky looking at us....I know he see's the book cover and is smiling down....He loved the fact of me writing....He encouraged me to write because he said, "Your writing is beautiful and always write."

The book cover

I love writing but now I understand what he meant....Writing can take you to another place....a wonderful place...I am currently writing a book about our lives together...I am dedicated to show to everyone what a wonderful, caring, and loving man Tommy was and still is...

The title was going to be "Soul Mates: Spirit Mates" but now Tommy has let me know that something was missing from the title so I am going with the title he sent to me in my heart and it is  "Spirit Bound: Journey of a love that transcends all time"....I was having a hard time coming up with the title but I looked up and ask Tommy to please help me decide..so now this will be the title and I love it. It fits so well and it just like him to help me name the book...I know it was him at work because he always said we were soul mates no matter here on Earth or in the spirit world......

So I would to thank Dancing with Bear Publisher, Marie MsGaha and R Jeffreys for all the hard work they do...They are amazing people and are part of my family now...We greatly appreciate everything they have done and are doing for us.....Tommy is smiling down on them for taking us and making us feel like family...

I also want to thank my wonderful kids, Shaelee 13, and Erik 23....They are my life now and I have to be strong for them....But remember kids I will have my days where I will cry for your dad...Its only because I love him so much....I know you understand...

My beautiful baby girl, Shaelee

My handsome son, Erik

Next I would like to thank Tommy for always being there for me....even now that he is in the spirit world I still  know and feel his presence....He made me who I am today and I know he loves me more than anything in the world and he will wait for me to join him....I love you my dear husband more than anything......

My loving husband, Tommy

I also must thank the Creator for allowing me the time I had with my Tommy.....I want to thank the Creator for blessing us with our kids....I want to thank the Creator for always being there for me.....and loving me unconditionally...I love you Creator with all my heart and please walk with us on this path and help us to heal....Amen.....

Our loving Creator God

Well I wanted to share with you all my blessing......

Love always and forever.....

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 20, 2011

As the sun starts to rise upon Mother Earth, I know you are here with us and watching the beauty the Creator sends to us...I know you are with us each and every day...every moment...every obstacle.....

Arizona Sunrise

Here is a poem that Erik wrote for you...It is from him and Shae.....

In your memory

Dad
As I stand here I hurt                                                       
Sun setting low I am lost
I feel no more comfort
Since the day you crossed

As the wind calmly blows
How I wish together we could stand
As you guide me through this world's woes
But now you no longer walk this land

As I look towards the many skies
Your face in the heavens I see
With wings and free as the eagle flies
And majestic as the beautiful tree

As darkness settles I cry adieu (goodbye)
So proud I am that you are my dad
Always know I miss you and I love you
And help me not be so sad

I love you always Dad,
Your Son & daughter,
Erik & Shaelee

As you can see it comes from the heart....But everything you taught us came from the heart...You are a man of love and respect...A man that loved the Creator and believed in him....I know that you are in heaven and you await our arrival.....Just know we love you and miss you so very much....

You know that on your birthday I always got you a single rose, it stood for our love as one...The single rose I got you this year sits by your Urn but here is another to represent our love forever....

One single rose for my love we are one 

Also, my publisher, Dancing with Bear, Marie Marler, is publishing the Christmas Story you loved so much and it is dedicated to you my love....The cover takes my breath away because you are in the clouds looking down and  I know that you are protecting us still...With all our love....

Dedicated to you for you so loved the story

Your wife and kids,

Linda, Shaelee, & Erik

October 18, 2011

As the sunsets and rises you are with me throughout them both...Our connection is still the same....You are with us in everything we do...I have no words of the pain I feel but know someday it will end....When I see your face again...

Our love will remain

We have been sent so many cards Tommy and it has helped Shaelee so much...There are poems in some but one stays with us...It was from our friend Rebecca Booth to Shaelee and Erik.... I would like to share it with you and to the world because it is touching to say the least...so here it is.....

Arizona Sunrise

Who would have thought you would go so soon....              
With you being gone, my life is so gloom...
I hate the fact you've gone away...
but know in my heart...
I know you'll stay...
You taught me right from wrong.....
and with this knowledge I must go on...
With hurt and pain in my heart...
I do know that we'll never be apart...
You made me laugh..
You made me cry...
with those moments...
I will make it by...
You are gone this I see...
and I know you are in heaven watching down on me...
I love you dad and always will....
but losing you is a great big deal....
the suffering has ended and you've gone home....
to sit with our Father on his throne....

Arizona Sunset

After we read this Shaelee broke down crying and said she loved and missed you so bad..I wrapped my arms around your baby girl because I know the pain ever so much...

I also want to say that Raquel Monday is one of the best friends in the world....She speaks to me and helps me through like so many others but we have a connection and we all know what that is...sunsets and sunrises...

So Tommy just wanted to say that we love you miss you just the same...No matter of time, no matter of space...our love will remain just the same...

Our Family 

We miss and love you dearly.

Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 17, 2011

Today is another day without you...I miss your smile, your laughter, I just miss you....I started writing your book about our life together....It is a way to honor you...You were and still are the best husband and father....

There are times that I just do not know if I can carry on  but then just as I am thinking that you come to my side and make me realize I have to for the kids.....

My precious Tommy

 There have been people that I have never met that are trying to comfort me....I know its you sending them my way.....I wish things were different....I wish you were here....Sometimes I do not know what to do and I don't have you to run to...

I know you do not want me to cry....well I just have a void in my heart that will remain...I know you understand but I also know and hear you saying, "Stop crying, it is okay. I love you and I am here always."

Our Family

You are the life within me.....I just have to learn to handle that you are not here in physical form....It will take me some time but it will come.
The kids are doing okay I guess, they miss you terribly and they love you more than anything

Our life

Thank you for being the husband and father you were and will continue to be....

We love you forever Tommy

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shaelee, & Erik

October 16, 2011

Another day with out you breaks my heart....I know you understand because if it was turned around you would feel the same.....We are soul mates so only we know how painful it is.......

Our love 

I took the kids to Apache Jii yesterday but we did not stay long...after all you were suppose to be with us this year...You could not wait to go but here are some photos of the event.......

Apache Jii: Hoop Dancer

We want you to know that we love you and miss you dearly.....Time can never change our feelings....People say it will get easier...I do not understand those words because the pain I have in my heart will never cease.....I guess babes they just do not understand the love we share...You always said that there are few people in this world who love the way we do.....

Erik and Shaelee:  Apache Jii 2011

I spoke with my publisher and my Christmas short story, "Journey to Christmas Creek" will be published in your honor....Also I spoke with my publisher to find out if she would publish a book about our lives from the precious moment we met up until your tragic passing....Of course, she told me yes.....so babes I am writing a book on our love in honor of you....

Just know we love you and miss you dearly...always....

Here is your wedding band that I wear around my neck....It will always be treasured and stand for our love....  My wedding band remains on my finger where it will be until I see you again.....

Symbol of our love that stands forever

Your wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 15, 2011

Tommy,

I want to write a letter to you today...I want to say all the things that I did not get to say...This is from me and the kids...We want you to know that we love you more than anything in the world...We did not get to say our last goodbyes to you before you went to be with the Creator....We want you to know that you were the best husband and father....You always spoke of how you were not afraid to die and that you believed and loved the Creator and I know you are with him...Know that we are sorry that we could not save you....If love could have saved you then you would be here with us today...because we love you more than anything...There are no words to explain how we feel other than...sorry, love, and helplessness....We know you do not want us to cry but we cannot help it....Please stay by our side.....

Now our hearts are empty, a void that cannot be replaced...We know that one day we will reunite but here on Earth it does not make it easier....So I guess we want to say...We love you...We miss you...Nothing can take your place...know you are with us in everything we do.....Nothing will ever change that...

We love you our dear sweet husband and father....

Tommy at Oak Flats

From me, I love you and I know you are with me....You were and are the best husband and I thank you for protecting me and watching over me...Help me through this....I know the Creator and you are carrying me...especially when I feel like I cannot go on....

Your wife forever

From your daughter, Shaelee....Dad I miss you and love you more than anything...I know you are with me...I feel you with everything I do......You are the best father a girl could have...Thank you for being there for me always no matter what...

Shaelee 

From your son, Erik...Dad I miss you too and love you....I miss your guidance but I will never forget what you taught me....I will look after mom and sister so do not worry....You are the best father in the world....

Erik

So, in closing Tommy just know how much we love you and that your absence will remain because there is nothing that can replace you...We love you always.....

Hawks soaring: Your favorite bird of prey

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shaelee, & Erik

October 13, 2011

Another day without you, Tommy I just do not know what to do...I miss you, our talks, everything about you. My heart breaks every moment of the day...I feel your presence and it assures me that you are okay and that you are walking this with us....

Shaelee is having a hard time dealing with her daddy not being here...She misses you so much...She says that she knows you are with her but she would just like to hear your voice and see your face.....

Erik misses you too....He talks to you privately of course....He has stepped up and helping me just like you wanted....

I have no words for any of this....But here is a poem that just came from my heart....

Now that you are gone..                                                        
We will never be the same..
Our emptiness will remain...
Our lives forever changed...
But when we see that sunset....
We see your loving face.....
You are with us....
Every moment of every day...
We love you...
That will never change..
We cannot wait to see your loving face...
But until then walk this path with us....
Hold our hands...
Dry our tears....
Make us stand.....
We love you that will never change...
You are forever with us.....
Each and every day....

Love your wife and kids

Linda, Shaelee, & Erik

October 12, 2011

The sun is rising in Arizona. I know you loved the rising sun and the sunsets in Arizona so here is a picture that I took with you on that night drive when we were just out taking some time alone. I am so thankful that we need this often, just you and me. I know you sit with me and will guide be. Thank you for all you have taught me and I know we will share our lives again.

They say that times eases the pain, but I can tell you right now, my pain will never cease.

I want everybody to see the inflowing of sympathy cards we are receiving. All my friends are just amazing. Thank you all the cards are helping my daughter and son to heal.

*Look at the white circle over the heart, unknown but its special to me*

  

                                                              

Just wanted to let everybody know that I am getting a Christmas Short Story published and it was dear to my husband. He loved the story and it is titled, "Journey to Christmas Creek." It will be available for Christmas. I will keep you updated on it.

I would like to thank Wayne and Anita, my brother and sister in law for coming to Arizona to help us deal with losing Tommy. I know Tommy is happy knowing his brother came to see him one last time. Oh how it helped the kids. Thank you Anita for the beautiful prayer shawl you crocheted for us. As you can see it is holding Tommy's picture with all the cards we have received and it will be where his urn will site. We treasure it.

Wayne and Anita

Well my dear sweet Tommy, my love for you is growing and will never cease. You are with your dad and the Creator now and I know that you await for us. You are our life and will forever be.

Tommy at Oak Flats: He loved it here

Your loving family,

Linda, Shaelee, Erik, & Feather