January 14, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Its Saturday.....Another lonely day without you....It never changes.....the loneliness and emptiness I feel....I just wish you were here....I know I say that all the time but it is so true....That is my only wish....

I am going to start a writing class here at our local library.....You  know how I wanted that so much....Especially here in Payson......

I think I will have a good turnout for the writing class....Sometimes you have to do something to keep the time going or else it stands still.....


You would be so proud of the kids.....They are sticking to me and protecting me at every angle.....You would not believe, well you would, all the people and their harassing ways....Sometimes I just don't know what to think....

Well babes just wanted to say that I love you and please walk with me on this journey....Love you more than anything.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

December 4, 2011

Tommy, 


Today is a 2 months since you have passed....A lot has changed for us.....I know you walk with us on this new path that we have to journey....The fact is the pain has never changed for us....Your absence is the hardest thing I have had to deal with.....

We love and miss you 

My friends here in Payson have already stepped up to the plate and are trying to keep me busy....I know you are happy for that.....The snow is pretty but I am sure it will melt a lot today with the sun coming out....

Our first snow in Payson

We went to the Christmas Parade last night...Shae loved it.....It was cold but we done it for you.....The smile on Shae's face was all I needed to see.....

Christmas Parade in Payson Dec. 3

Well my sweet, precious husband, Tommy......You are in our hearts and souls....We love you forever....

Payson Christmas Parade

Your wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Payson, AZ Christmas Parade

November 27, 2011

My dearest Tommy,

In a couple of days we will be headed to Payson.....The kids are so excited to be getting out of here.....I know you are happy that we are.....There are no words to explain the feeling I have.....I mean, I want to leave, cannot wait, but I guess because this is the last place that we shared I will cry.....

Payson will be a new chapter in our life.......I know you will go with us and live where we do......I just want you to know I am doing what is best for us all.....I do not know about anything else.....You are the best thing that ever happened to me......

Life is what it is.....Cherish what you have and be proud because you never know when it could be gone.....I loved and cherished you......You showed me a world that I would have never knew....A world of love and understanding, forgiveness, a bond that will never be broken......

I will forever love you.... You are my soul mate....But of course, you know that....All my love.....sent to you....

The kids love you too....You know that too.....We speak your name all the time and that will never stop.....

Love you with all our hearts.......

Your loving family,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 10, 2011

Tommy I am going to try and have a better day today....It is so overwhelming and hard to believe that you are not here....I expect for you to walk in the door......How I wish you could.....I talk to you every morning.....every night....really all the time....I know you hear me and understand......

I would love to hear your voice...To hold your hand....To hear your laughter....but in my heart I can....
There is no easy road right now.....Shaelee misses you something terrible but she wants you to know she will take care of  me for you......and she loves you so........Erik is also looking out for me just as he promised......He loves you so too...  It is so hard to accept that you are not coming back......

I see other couples together and it makes me mad......We should have that time too....But I know the Creator knows best and I do not question that at all.......I just wish that is all that you were here and we would not be so sad......

I will get stronger just give me time.....It is hard and I will always cry.......One minute without you is to long....but I know you are in my heart and your spirit walks with us every step we take....

So, my dear, precious, loving husband, We love you more than anything or any words can explain.....We are soul mates, you and I.....Forever......

We love and miss you......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik