November 7, 2011

Tommy, it is another day and I still do not know what to do or say....I miss you with everything in me....I know one day we will reunite.....

Nature

The days seem longer without you in them...whereas before it seemed like time slipped away from us.....Just know we love you so much and speak your name all the time....

Here is a poem that I had to share....

When tomorrow never comes.....

When tomorrow starts without me

And I'm not here to see if the sun should rise

And find your eyes all filled with tears for me

I wish so much you wouldn't cry

The way you did today

While thinking of the many things

We didn't get to say

I know how much you love me as much as I love you

And each time that you think of me

I know you'll miss me too

But when tomorrow starts without me

Please try to understand

That a spirit came and called my name

And took me by the hand and said my place was ready

In heaven far above

And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love

But as I turned to walk away a tear fell from my eye

For all my life I always thought I didn't want to die

I had so much to live for and so much yet to do

It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you

I thought of all the yesterdays to good ones and the bad

I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had

If I could re-live yesterday I thought for just awhile

I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile

But then I fully realized that this could never be

For emptiness and memories would take the place of me

So when tomorrow starts without me

Don't think we're far apart

For every time you think of me

I'm right here in your heart.

You will forever be in our hearts....Our love will continue til the end of time and then it will continue after that.......I am so thankful to the Creator for bonding us so closely......

We love you forever......                                          

Your wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 30, 2011

Well Tommy another long day without you.....Sometimes it gets to be overwhelming....Most of the time I do not know what I am doing.....sometimes I cannot breath.....If only you were here.....

Cactus in the desert

I came across a beautiful poem and I have to post it here....It says things that I want to say to you.....My heart is so sad...I cannot explain the emptiness in it....Its a void that will always be.....Nothing can change....So please help me through....I know the Creator walks with me too...I am so thankful......

Credit to: Echoes from Heaven: Facebook
For my loving husband, Tommy

I see others with their spouse...Maybe its wrong but it makes me mad.....I cannot help...I miss you so....Words cannot express how I need you so.....The tears keep streaming no matter what I do.....Oh how my heart hurts so deep and true.....

Our love is forever

Please walk with me and never leave.....I need your presence every day to see me through......As long as I have the Creator and my Tommy walking with me then I will make it through......I will never be the same but I  will always love you....

Bring peace into my life, Creator 

Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 29, 2011

Yesterday I received my author's copies of "Journey to Christmas Creek" I was so pleased with the cover...
Dancing with Bear Publishing is the best publisher in the world.....The cover turned out great and the kids loved that fact, as do I, that Tommy is in the sky looking at us....I know he see's the book cover and is smiling down....He loved the fact of me writing....He encouraged me to write because he said, "Your writing is beautiful and always write."

The book cover

I love writing but now I understand what he meant....Writing can take you to another place....a wonderful place...I am currently writing a book about our lives together...I am dedicated to show to everyone what a wonderful, caring, and loving man Tommy was and still is...

The title was going to be "Soul Mates: Spirit Mates" but now Tommy has let me know that something was missing from the title so I am going with the title he sent to me in my heart and it is  "Spirit Bound: Journey of a love that transcends all time"....I was having a hard time coming up with the title but I looked up and ask Tommy to please help me decide..so now this will be the title and I love it. It fits so well and it just like him to help me name the book...I know it was him at work because he always said we were soul mates no matter here on Earth or in the spirit world......

So I would to thank Dancing with Bear Publisher, Marie MsGaha and R Jeffreys for all the hard work they do...They are amazing people and are part of my family now...We greatly appreciate everything they have done and are doing for us.....Tommy is smiling down on them for taking us and making us feel like family...

I also want to thank my wonderful kids, Shaelee 13, and Erik 23....They are my life now and I have to be strong for them....But remember kids I will have my days where I will cry for your dad...Its only because I love him so much....I know you understand...

My beautiful baby girl, Shaelee

My handsome son, Erik

Next I would like to thank Tommy for always being there for me....even now that he is in the spirit world I still  know and feel his presence....He made me who I am today and I know he loves me more than anything in the world and he will wait for me to join him....I love you my dear husband more than anything......

My loving husband, Tommy

I also must thank the Creator for allowing me the time I had with my Tommy.....I want to thank the Creator for blessing us with our kids....I want to thank the Creator for always being there for me.....and loving me unconditionally...I love you Creator with all my heart and please walk with us on this path and help us to heal....Amen.....

Our loving Creator God

Well I wanted to share with you all my blessing......

Love always and forever.....

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 23, 2011

Tommy we are still in disbelief....Shae is having a hard time....I am getting her to talk and tell me her fears....She misses you more than anything in the world but we all do.....People say  that it will get easier but just as me and your daughter talked and we know that is not true....We were close as a family and the pain will never go away....

Arizona Sunset for Tommy

Our son went out hiking just so he could take some pictures of sunsets for you.....There are times we feel we cannot go on then we know you are there pushing us....Between the help of you and the Creator we know we are stronger but we miss you all the same....

Arizona: Hiking Trail

People can be mean but we have learned they are the ones with the problem and we ignore them....Still the pain will never cease....We know that you are here and that you see and hear all things....We ask for your guidance in everything we do....The Creator needed you and we understand that but the pain and feeling of loss and empty remain.....

Beautiful sunset

I try to be strong for the kids but sometimes I lose it too....I feel your presence everywhere I go and in everything I do....That is what gives me the strength to carry on.....I cry for you and the kids cry for you....Just know you will travel every road and every path that we encounter....

Sunset

Please I pray for the Creator and you my precious Tommy to show me and guide me in the direction I need to go.....Show me the path on this journey so I can make the right decisions...Protect us and bound us with love and comfort.....In everything we do we will give our all to the Creator and we pray that our love will only grow stronger for all people.....We love you Creator and we love Tommy....Amen

Beautiful Sunset

One special prayer was given today by a friend on Facebook...It is beautiful and breathtaking...Thank you my friend.....
God never makes a mistake'He lulled me to sleep and I could not awake-He took me away from toil and strife-To fulfill His promise of a better life-God is a good God all the time-He pacified my troubled mind-When He ended my earthly lease-He directed me to Heaven to rest in peace-God sent an angel to lead the way-To preclude the possibility of me going astray-I gave God praises and was not ashamed-To magnify His holy name-I followed God's footprints in the sand-Suddenly He reached back and grabbed my hand-He said "Have faith my child you have won the race-Having faith paid off,your in a better place-Where there are no more heartaches,pain or stress....My faithful servant,come and take your rest " ............may he rest in peace and God bless you and the children

The beauty of Mother Nature

Love your wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik