November 9, 2011

Tommy the holidays are fast approaching....We dread them because you will not be here to share it with us....I know you will be here in spirit and we are thankful for that....We just long to see your face....The tears will not stop flowing...It does not get easier.....It gets harder.....

Our Sunset

We know that we must carry on but at times it is so difficult....People give advice all the time on what we should do or need to do.....There are only a couple of people who truly understand and that is Marta and Dove......They listen and understand......They can feel my loss...

So just wanted to let you know how I am feeling.....I want and need you to hold....You always made me feel better no matter what was going on....All you had to do was hug me and it made everything okay.......

Our sunset that we loved so much 

The kids miss you so much.....They even talked about the holidays and how hard it will be......
We know it going to be hard from here on out..... the pain of losing you proves things will not ever be the same....

We were suppose to grow old together and do things that we always talked about......It is so hard and I miss you and love you so much.....Please walk the path with me everyday so I can make it through.....

My precious husband I love you

I love you my precious, loving Tommy.....Forever I do.....      

Your loving wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 8, 2011

Today is another day without my precious Tommy.... He walks with us on our journey now......The Creator is in our hearts and he has provided for us and we are thankful.....

Your lake my babes

There are times in life you wonder about things but then you stop and think.....Life can be filled with many questions but the Creator knows best.....I know the Creator knows the type of love Tommy and I shared....and our love will continue throughout time...It will never cease.....It will grow stronger.....Everything I do is for my family.....

Our sunset

I will keep writing my books in dedication to my Tommy because he loved when I wrote....Tommy would say that my writing was important....He felt it will help people someday.....especially the American Indian....

Blood on the Feather Dedicated to my precious husband, Tommy

Journey to Christmas Creek- Dedicated to my wonderful husband, Tommy 

Native Spirit dedicated to my Tommy

So I will continue my writing in honor of my precious Tommy.......He will always be in our lives and he will never be forgotten......He knows how much we love him and we know how much he loves us.....So, we will reunite and be a family again.....but in our hearts we still are......

Love you with all my heart......

Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 7, 2011

Tommy, it is another day and I still do not know what to do or say....I miss you with everything in me....I know one day we will reunite.....

Nature

The days seem longer without you in them...whereas before it seemed like time slipped away from us.....Just know we love you so much and speak your name all the time....

Here is a poem that I had to share....

When tomorrow never comes.....

When tomorrow starts without me

And I'm not here to see if the sun should rise

And find your eyes all filled with tears for me

I wish so much you wouldn't cry

The way you did today

While thinking of the many things

We didn't get to say

I know how much you love me as much as I love you

And each time that you think of me

I know you'll miss me too

But when tomorrow starts without me

Please try to understand

That a spirit came and called my name

And took me by the hand and said my place was ready

In heaven far above

And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love

But as I turned to walk away a tear fell from my eye

For all my life I always thought I didn't want to die

I had so much to live for and so much yet to do

It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you

I thought of all the yesterdays to good ones and the bad

I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had

If I could re-live yesterday I thought for just awhile

I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile

But then I fully realized that this could never be

For emptiness and memories would take the place of me

So when tomorrow starts without me

Don't think we're far apart

For every time you think of me

I'm right here in your heart.

You will forever be in our hearts....Our love will continue til the end of time and then it will continue after that.......I am so thankful to the Creator for bonding us so closely......

We love you forever......                                          

Your wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 6,2011

A flower to represent our love

Well babes, another day without you....I will never get use to this....I miss our talks.....When something was bothering me you always knew and would say, "It will be okay. Don't let people get to you. All that matters is that we are here together and our kids are healthy and nobody shares the love we have." That would bring a smile to my face.....But you always could.....

Our sunset

The kids miss you so very much....There is a void, an emptiness like no other....Our lives has changed forever.....Please guide us and walk with us through this journey....

Nobody can understand what we are going through unless they have experienced it too....Our family...our love....is so unique....There is not a love like ours......

Beauty

So I take each day and try to breath....Try to write....Try to make sense of it all......But I know you are with the Creator and everything will be okay.....

Please stay with me everyday.....every minute......through everything.....

The book I am working on now is about our life together....How beautiful our time was.....It will continue even though you walk in the spirit world for our type of love is special and will never cease....

The title of the book is:    "Spirit Bound: Journey of a love that transcends all time."

Our wedding vows remain forever

I love you babes, forever


Your loving wife and kids,


Linda, Shae, & Erik

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November 5, 2011

Tommy, well I followed your whispers in my ear....I resigned as 911 dispatcher....Losing you in such a tragic way I realized that I could not take the risk of losing what is left of me......I am trying to get us moved.....You guessed it.....To Payson.....You know I always loved living there but we were suppose to move there as a family with you with us......

We wonder why things turned out the way they have.....Sometime I know the Creator will show us why.....We miss your smile, your laughter, you......It will never be the same for any of us.....No matter the amount of time which goes by.....You will always be with us.......

This says it so well.....

I know the Creator walks with us on this path that we now walk....We are thankful for everything that he provides for us....We love the Creator forever and always.....

Well babes, walk with us on this journey and watch over us....Let the decisions I make be the right ones.....
We love you forever and we need you by our side..

For my Tommy He loved he Wolf as he loved all animals on Mother Earth

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 4, 2011

Today is a month since you have crossed over into the spirit world....It hasn't got any easier.....Matter of fact the pain is stronger.....I thought people were my friend but found out differently which you always said there are no friends....Only one you can count on is yourself and the family....How true that is....

We love and miss you

Have a million things running through my head.....What to do?.....It will all work out I know.....


I need to say a prayer....."Creator God, please guide me to make the right decision for my family....Please let somebody step up and help me......All I need is you, Creator God.....Please let Tommy walk every step with us in spirit......

Our sunset

We have many paths to walk......The journey, especially here at the holidays are going to be the most difficult....See my Tommy always cooked the turkey, and he made the mash potatoes....Let me tell you it is the best turkey and mashed potatoes in the world.....

He loved for me to make my deviled eggs and potato salad....He would say "Its the best potato salad in the world and I know it is all for me." He would smile then...I miss that smile.....I miss him more than anything in the world....My life is not the same without him....He made me solid......I am so empty inside.....

Just for you my precious Tommy

Please Tommy know my heart hurts so bad...Please help me to do the right thing....I love you forever.....The kids love you forever.....We will miss you forever....until we get to see your face again.....

Our sunset babes

Love you babes.......                                          

Your wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik