December 13, 2011

My dearest sweet, Tommy,


You are the love of my life....There is never a minute that does not go by that I don't think of you....I need you so much....It is at times overbearing......

I know you are here in spirit form...I feel your breath on my neck....I feel you in everything I do.....

Shaelee is doing good in school....She speaks your name everyday....She misses her dad speaking to her and making her laugh.....

Erik is enjoying hiking....He misses you too.....He misses all the laughter we shared....


Time cannot heal this pain....Never......It is so deep the words cannot explain how we feel....You are our backbone.....What made us whole....Now there is void that cannot be fixed.....

Well just wanted to say that we love you dearly and that will never change...The mere words "missing you" does not explain how we feel....

Love you forever and always.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 27, 2011

My dearest Tommy,

In a couple of days we will be headed to Payson.....The kids are so excited to be getting out of here.....I know you are happy that we are.....There are no words to explain the feeling I have.....I mean, I want to leave, cannot wait, but I guess because this is the last place that we shared I will cry.....

Payson will be a new chapter in our life.......I know you will go with us and live where we do......I just want you to know I am doing what is best for us all.....I do not know about anything else.....You are the best thing that ever happened to me......

Life is what it is.....Cherish what you have and be proud because you never know when it could be gone.....I loved and cherished you......You showed me a world that I would have never knew....A world of love and understanding, forgiveness, a bond that will never be broken......

I will forever love you.... You are my soul mate....But of course, you know that....All my love.....sent to you....

The kids love you too....You know that too.....We speak your name all the time and that will never stop.....

Love you with all our hearts.......

Your loving family,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

November 22, 2011

Getting closer to Thanksgiving......Harder by the minute.......I do give thanks for everything I have.....My kids are  the most important thing to me......They are all I have.....Which is a lot.....Thank you Creator God for all the things I do  have......

I do miss my Tommy and wish I had him......I know Tommy that you understand that......You were my other half....I am at a loss without you.....I talk to you and always will.......You are still my other half and that will never change.....You are not here in the physical form but you are here in spirit and in my heart.....

I will always long to see your face...your smile.....feel your hands......to hear your laughter......That will never change.....Never.......

Sometime I feel empty......Really cannot explain the feeling.....I hope it's all just a nightmare and I wake up to find you here..... If only it was just a nightmare........

Well my sweet babes....I love you forever and ever.......You are on my mind all the time no matter what I am doing......Your forever in my heart......Love you always......

Your loving wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 16, 2011

The sun rose as it always does and you were being thought of as it ascended upon Mother Earth.....There is not a minute that you are not on my mind...It seems that nobody.... except a few true friends and our precious kids.....can understand the hurt in my heart.....Sometimes the hurt is so overbearing I can hardly stand it......

Our Sunset

The love for you my precious Tommy will always be....Shaelee misses you so much.....We talked Monday night while we had on your Monday night football, how you always tried to get her to watch it with you and she would laugh at you......The sudden loss is hard for Shaelee and all of us....She loves you more than anything.....She wants you to know that she is your little girl always.....

Our precious daughter, Shaelee

Erik misses you too.... The sudden loss was so hard for him......He speaks your name and wishes you were here.....We all feel it is so unfair but we do not question it........The Creator knows best and now we walk this path on our journey......We know you walk it with us each and every day......

Our Precious son, Erik

My love for you is for always and forever.....In other words....I love you more than love.....There is not a word to describe how my love is for you......You are my soul mate forever....I miss you so much.....

Your wife who loves you more than anything

We love and miss you.....We want you to know.......Forever......

Our family forever

Your loving wife and kids,

My precious Husband Tommy

Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 5, 2011

Tommy, well I followed your whispers in my ear....I resigned as 911 dispatcher....Losing you in such a tragic way I realized that I could not take the risk of losing what is left of me......I am trying to get us moved.....You guessed it.....To Payson.....You know I always loved living there but we were suppose to move there as a family with you with us......

We wonder why things turned out the way they have.....Sometime I know the Creator will show us why.....We miss your smile, your laughter, you......It will never be the same for any of us.....No matter the amount of time which goes by.....You will always be with us.......

This says it so well.....

I know the Creator walks with us on this path that we now walk....We are thankful for everything that he provides for us....We love the Creator forever and always.....

Well babes, walk with us on this journey and watch over us....Let the decisions I make be the right ones.....
We love you forever and we need you by our side..

For my Tommy He loved he Wolf as he loved all animals on Mother Earth

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik