March 10, 2012

Tommy's garden

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Life is so empty without you in it...I pray everyday to see and hear you.....I pray for you to come to me in my dreams....I want to hold you once again and tell you how much I love you....

Oak Flats

I know one day we will be together again....You will hold me in your arms as if we were never separated by this thing called time......You are my soul mate....My every breath...my life.....

My precious Tommy

You showed me strength and how to live life....You showed me that the only thing mattered was our life together...You made me realize that life is to short and you must live for now....I just wished you were here my love....

One of many sunsets that we shared

The pain never ceases in my heart....You are with me all the time....Nothing or nobody will ever change that.....My heart belongs to you....forever.....

At Oak Flats

We love and miss you every day....every minute....Forever....


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 3, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I am missing you as always.....You are always on my mind no matter what....Friends help me to get through the day but nothing can ever replace you....

I sometimes wonder what you would think about this or that but always know you would tell me to be happy....You protected, loved and took care of me while you were here on Earth and I know you continue the same with me while you are not here....

I feel your arms wrap around me at times....It keeps me going....It always will.....
I know with you I have had the greatest love of all time....Your love is so unique....none other like it....I miss you so very much....

I know you are in the spirit world, preparing for the day that I join you.....It will be beautiful but know I need to stay here with our kids for a little while....I know you want that too....So just walk with me....talk with me....guide me to where and what my journey is suppose to be...

I love you my babes.....forever....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 26, 2012

Sacred Run: We shared this together and I am so thankful

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I went to the cardiologist yesterday and he has ordered some tests...I have to wear a heart monitor for 24 hours but first they have to get insurance approval.....

Sacred Run: One of your favorite spots on the Rez

I guess my heart is so broken over losing you....But you are the love of my life....You made me the happiest person in the world....Never will I get over this.....The loss is to great....I wish you were here....I don't know what to do without you.....I wonder around trying to find something to fill the void....It is so hard....

Our sunset we shared

I know I have to go on but it is so hard....I wish I could find a way to stop all the pain in my heart but it will not cease.....I love our kids more than anything and I love you more than anything....

Sacred ground Cochise Stronghold

How does one cope with such a loss.....I talk and pray to the Creator and he does listen and helps me to get through some of the most difficult times....I am so thankful for that....

Sunrise

Then of course our kids help me through and speaking to you and calling your name helps me too....I love you my babes.....I will always love you no matter what......

Beauty

Well I will go for now....Your mom is suppose to come up today...


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

December 2, 2011

Tommy,

My love....good morning...It is cool here this morning but no snow......I have longed to see your face and smile....to feel your hands upon my skin.....I will always want to see, hear, and feel you......Time will never erase that......

Sometimes I feel so alone.....I know I have the kids but I want and need you......We miss you so much.......It is hard to explain the feelings I have in my heart.....I cannot explain the emptiness of it all.....I will just go day by day but still I need you......Words can never touch my feelings.....

I feel as if time has stood still and all of this is just a nightmare.....I think that I will wake up to see you again.....My heart is crushed when I see that it is real.....I try so hard to be strong for the kids but sometimes I cannot hold the pain.....

I pray the kids understand what a loss I suffer....I know they suffer too and I am there for them........My dearest Tommy.....Please just always be with us.......Wait on us to join you when it is our time......

We love you more than anything......

Your wife and kids,
Melinda, Shaelee, & Erik

November 21, 2011

My dearest love, Tommy.....How I miss you so much....I know you know that because I tell you all the time.....But that is okay because I will always tell you that....Shaelee is getting a good response to her book.....

My love forever

I told her how proud you were of her....She will just smile......We all love you Tommy and miss you dearly.....Thanksgiving is around the corner and it is going to be very hard for us.......We always done holidays as a family......So the holidays are going to be very hard.....

A flower for my love

You will be on our mind and the pain will be so strong......We cannot help our feelings......We were such a close family.....Everything centered around the family....I know you will be here on Thanksgiving and Christmas.....Really we hope that you are here with us every holiday.... but we know you are here with us a lot....We know you are......

My love forever

Our sunset coming soon

Well babes just wanted to say to you "I love you more than anything".......I finished writing the book about our life together.....Now I have to type it and soon it will be published.....Everybody has to know what type of man you are....the greatest.....no other man like you in the world.....

Love you Tommy

We love you forever......

Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 1, 2011

The pain never seizes and on the 4th it will be a month since you have left Mother Earth...It is so hard to believe....The pain is still there....The love is always there...You are missed so bad there are no words that can express the emptiness in my heart....

Our sunset

I often wonder what I am going to do......I feel at times I cannot do anything....Of course I hear you pushing and telling me, "Yes you can...You must.."

Our Family forever

I wonder around and think of you.....No matter what I do you are always on my mind....The kids went to the haunted house last night and Shae said it was fun.....I know that brings a smile to your face....She loves stuff like that......I know you smile when you see her smile.....She looks like you more and more each day...The eyes are identical.....

The sunset we shared together at Old San Carlos Monument

Please know we love you and miss you and nothing will ever change that.....You are us....always will be....

We love you forever.....

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 30, 2011

Well Tommy another long day without you.....Sometimes it gets to be overwhelming....Most of the time I do not know what I am doing.....sometimes I cannot breath.....If only you were here.....

Cactus in the desert

I came across a beautiful poem and I have to post it here....It says things that I want to say to you.....My heart is so sad...I cannot explain the emptiness in it....Its a void that will always be.....Nothing can change....So please help me through....I know the Creator walks with me too...I am so thankful......

Credit to: Echoes from Heaven: Facebook
For my loving husband, Tommy

I see others with their spouse...Maybe its wrong but it makes me mad.....I cannot help...I miss you so....Words cannot express how I need you so.....The tears keep streaming no matter what I do.....Oh how my heart hurts so deep and true.....

Our love is forever

Please walk with me and never leave.....I need your presence every day to see me through......As long as I have the Creator and my Tommy walking with me then I will make it through......I will never be the same but I  will always love you....

Bring peace into my life, Creator 

Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik