March 25, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you so very much....I wish you were here and that we were sharing our lives together....I will always wish that...You mean more to me then anything in the world...

I hope that someday all the hurt and pain will cease.....to some extent....anyway....I love you more than anything in the world and always will....You are my heart and soul.....Always....

I had fun at the Casino with my friends last night.....I know that makes you happy for all you ever wanted for me was to be happy....I was happy when I was with you....You brought me the happiest time in my life sharing everything with you....

I love you my babes forever.....


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 24, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


You are so missed by us....You are the light in our life...We love and miss you so much....Sometimes life seems so unfair and we wonder why things are as they are.....Not that we are questioning anything but we just wonder.....

Time has a way of giving us false hope...Like you will come back one day...That I am going to open the door and there you are....I only wish that could happen...How I long to see you and wish you were here....Words will never say how much I miss you so....

I cry a lot wanting you to come back....I pray at times that you will....But I know you can't because if that was the case then you would have been back the moment you had to leave...You loved us more than anything in the world....I know that...You would have gave up everything if that is what it would take.....Remember I love you my husband and no matter what happens on this earth that will never change.....You are my soul mate.....

I love you.....Forever....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 22, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


How I long to hold your hand and watch the sunsets cascading down on mother earth.....The times we would go riding around just to watch the sunsets.....Oh this brings joy to my heart....

I long to hold you close and whisper in your ear....I would love to be able to say "I love you babes" as I always did.....I still do these things but in a different way...I have no words for how my heart hurts...I try to focus on something else but sometimes thinking of you overtakes everything else....

I can never express how much I love you...Words cannot fill that space.....I wish you were here but so do the kids...They know how much I miss you.....They see the tears that flow....the anger in me.....the longing for their dad is so obvious......

I love you my babes....Forever


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 19, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you so much....I found myself crying a lot yesterday...Its as if all this just happened yesterday....Nothing will ever be the same for me....I will always be unhappy for the loss of you is so great.....

People need to step back and think about the ones who mean the most to them....They can be gone in a blink of an eye....You never really think about it but it is always there.....

I love our kids Tommy so much....I am always afraid and I seem to cry a lot......I need to chill out and take it one day at a time but sometimes it gets overwhelming and I just lose it....

It snowed here in Payson....It's pretty and I don't have to travel in it so I don't mind it....Well I guess I will go for now....I love you my babes.....Forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 18, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


It's snowing today...I can't believe it....We are suppose to get a lot of snow.....It's beautiful and so relaxing...I am so glad I don't have to go anywhere....You know how I am about driving in the snow......

I miss you so much.....You are the light in my lighthouse....The sun in my sunshine....The beat of my heart....I miss you so very much....

I know you are watching over me and taking me on the road that I have to travel......You sit with me as I watch TV.....You are with me all the time......the feeling of you sitting beside me makes me happy.....

Well I am going for now....Remember I love you and need you....always....and forever....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 12, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I truly love you my babes....I miss you every day.... When will it get better? You are always on my mind.....I speak your name everyday and it will never change.....

Love is something that is hard to find....I found it in you and now I will never let it go.....You showed me love and how to love....You showed me how to not forget but forgive.......You showed me how to love myself.....You showed me that it does not matter about others only about us......

You made me feel like a special somebody.....I can only say "Thank you my love" I know you are an angel in heaven watching over us......You will always be here with us until we can be together again.....

I know we will be together again and then we will have eternity together....We will share all our love again....We will share everything forever.....

I love you my babes......Forever!!!!


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 10, 2012

Tommy's garden

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Life is so empty without you in it...I pray everyday to see and hear you.....I pray for you to come to me in my dreams....I want to hold you once again and tell you how much I love you....

Oak Flats

I know one day we will be together again....You will hold me in your arms as if we were never separated by this thing called time......You are my soul mate....My every breath...my life.....

My precious Tommy

You showed me strength and how to live life....You showed me that the only thing mattered was our life together...You made me realize that life is to short and you must live for now....I just wished you were here my love....

One of many sunsets that we shared

The pain never ceases in my heart....You are with me all the time....Nothing or nobody will ever change that.....My heart belongs to you....forever.....

At Oak Flats

We love and miss you every day....every minute....Forever....


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

March 9, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you so very much....I want to see your loving face.....My heart breaks everyday.......I want you here so bad...sitting beside me....

I want to hear your words....See your face.....Show me the love that we always shared...Thank you for coming to me in my dreams....It helps me so very much...Just seeing you and hearing your voice....

You make my day....In every way...In every situation....You are the world to me....You will always be my love..the shining beacon that guides me...I miss your arms around me....Holding me and showing me everything in life...

I love you my dear husband....forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik 

March 8, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you my babes...I can hardly resist the urge to scream and cry at the top of my voice to show the world how much I miss and love you...You are always in my heart and I love you more than anything in the world...

I long to be in your arms....Listening to your voice telling me how much you love me...I am focused on you and you alone....I want you to know how much I love and miss you...That will never change...You are my soul mate....My life.....My love....

We will always be together....No matter what...I want to show you how much I love you....and always will.....You mean more to me than anything and I am vulnerable at times and feel so alone but know you are what keeps me strong and going....

Well my babes....I love you...Forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 28, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


You are on my mind.....Always and forever.....You are my heart and you keep me going strong....There are times I feel I can't go on......But then you come to me in spirit and push me on....

It has snowed some this morning....My writing class is tonight....I hope the snow doesn't get bad....But you know that I hate driving in the snow....You would laugh at me if I had to drive in snow because it would scare me so...I depended on you to help me through....I still do....

I will love you forever....I think of you all the time...You are in my heart and soul....You are the blood that flows through my veins....My every breath......I love you so very much and always will....

Well my babes I will talk to you later....I love you.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 23, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


It's going to be a nice, warm day and I am so glad....The sun is shining upon Mother Earth giving her a radiant setting....I love you my Tommy and I wrote a poem for us......Here it is:

Remember

Remember when we first met

Two hearts locked in place

Remember his loving face

When your heart begins to race

Remember his kisses

Upon your face

Remember his laughter

When life seems to fade

Remember your wedding day

When happiness filled your space

Remember his love

Then you will never be apart

Two hearts joined together

Nothing can tear apart

He was taken suddenly

No warning signs at all

Now, he’s crossed over

Into the spirit world

Where no pain or worries

Enter his heart

Remember his “I love you”

When you feel you can’t go on

His spirit will remain alive

In the hearts he touched

I will see his face again

Then my heart will know no end

The precious moments that we shared

Is a lifetime of love that cannot be compared

So I remember my Tommy today and always….

He lives on inside of me and our bond will never end.

Well my babes I just wanted you to know how much I love you....forever....By writing this poem I want the world to know just how much you mean to me....I love you more than anything ......Please be with me forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,

Melinda, Shae, & Erik