March 5, 2012

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


You are the best husband in the world....It was hard dealing with yesterday.... 5 months since you have crossed over into the spirit world...I hope to have a better day today....

You came to me in my dreams last night...I am so thankful...I needed to hear your voice and see your face...You spoke to me and told me that everything was okay....That you are with me no matter what....I love you my babes....

You made my day by coming and seeing me in my dreams...You knew I was having a hard time dealing with the pain...Like always you come to my rescue.....showing me how much love you have for me.....as I have for you....

They say it gets easier with time...I can't see that for me...Our love was a bond nothing can touch...Not even death....Our bond remains and always will....

I love you my babes.....Forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 18, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Today is going to be busy for me....I have to work on the material I will be covering in my writing class on Tuesday.....Oh I named the class: Rim Country Creative Writers.....

I hope there is more that I can do to help other writers....You know how much my writing means to me....But you are my inspiration for it all....You always encouraged me to never stop writing....

There are times I feel like giving up.....But then you come to me and show me that is not an option....I know you are still with me and love me.......You want me to carry on with my writing and be here for our kids.....

I miss you dearly and love you more than anything...You are my life and my love.....I will carry you with me forever....

I love you my babes....forever and ever......


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 17, 2012

My dear precious Tommy,


Just another day of missing you.....Its always the same.....I love you more than anything in the world....You are missed so much.....

There is not a minute that I do not think of you....You are the most precious thing to me....of course the kids are too.....I cannot express my feelings of missing you....Words can not express it......

My heart is sealed for you.....That is the only thing I know....I have a special friend who means a lot to me.....You know him and would be so proud that he is being so good to me.....We talk about you a lot.....

Well my babes I am going to go....Love you forever....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 10, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Well I am still missing you...You are my every thought.....Your the reason for me to do what I do....You keep me strong and going...I am having such a hard time dealing with the fact that you are gone.....

I think that sometimes you will come back....Its just a matter of time....But then I realize you are gone.....It breaks my heart to no end...I sometimes wish I could just lie in bed and never get up....The pain is so hard to deal with.....

It is going to be nice today....Please walk with me and help me through....I miss you so very much and there is nothing I can do to ease the pain.....I think of you every moment....no matter what I am doing....

You are my life....My love...forever....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 8, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I want to tell you that I miss you so very much....Our love will stand the test of time....I know that we will forever love each other....Sometimes I think I will wake up and all of this is just a nightmare...

Time is never going to change anything for me....I will love you more than words can express...I will never understand why all of this had to happen....It is something that I will never understand....But I guess I am not suppose to....

There are times I feel so alone.....I think about everything and wish that I could go back in time and do things differently....I wish that we could start all over....have our precious kids and that you would be here and we would grow old together....You know that is what we talked about......

You by my side....rocking in a rocking chair....holding hands and watching the sunsets....Oh how I wish that could happen....I will never understand and it will always break my heart.....

Well my precious love....I will always love you and you are always on my mind.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 6, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Well the Patriots did not win the Super Bowl....It broke my heart to see them lose....But its okay...they will win next year....I know you were sitting on the couch watching it with me.....

I have a pretty busy day today.....I have to go to post office, go to casino, and then grocery store.....Then tonight going out with my friends.....Going to casino.....We always have fun there and laugh a lot....

I know we share a bond that no other can break.....Most people do not understand or even know what that is like....It is so strong no matter what it cannot be touched.....

Well I love you babes forever and ever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shaelee, & Erik

February 5, 2012

One of our favorite spots babes

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Well yesterday was 4 months since you crossed over into the spirit world.....I miss you so much.....It will always be the same for me....

Nobody can completely understand how I feel or how much I miss you....I may hang out with friends but that only helps for awhile....They make me laugh and see that you would want me to be happy...I do try to be.....

My Tommy

Today is the super bowl....I know you will be here to watch it...It's the New York Giants and the New England Patriots....Patriots all the way babes I know that is your team....

Our family

The kids are so strong....They went to the movies last night....Shae loves to go....I love our kids so much...They are a piece of you and precious to me for they are our kids....come from our love.....our bond....

Our family...forever

My dearest friend, Beth has been so inspirational to me...She is always there for me and she always shows me the ray of hope I need to get through....She is such a dear and special friend...More like a sister to me....Well here is to you Beth for being there for me...You are the greatest...

My wonderful and dear friend Beth and her husband Dennis

Beth and her grandbaby

Well my babes I am going for now...I love you always and forever...


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 3, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I am missing you as always.....You are always on my mind no matter what....Friends help me to get through the day but nothing can ever replace you....

I sometimes wonder what you would think about this or that but always know you would tell me to be happy....You protected, loved and took care of me while you were here on Earth and I know you continue the same with me while you are not here....

I feel your arms wrap around me at times....It keeps me going....It always will.....
I know with you I have had the greatest love of all time....Your love is so unique....none other like it....I miss you so very much....

I know you are in the spirit world, preparing for the day that I join you.....It will be beautiful but know I need to stay here with our kids for a little while....I know you want that too....So just walk with me....talk with me....guide me to where and what my journey is suppose to be...

I love you my babes.....forever....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 2, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I hope today is a good day.....With you by my side I know it will be...Your are my light....my soul.....You keep me going...

I think of you everyday....every minute....You will be in my heart and soul forever....I go out with my friends but you are always with me.....

I breath you....I talk about you...There is always "you" in everything I do...I am waiting for the background check to come back so I can start work at the PD.....I can't wait....Well I have to go....

Love you always......


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 1, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I held my first writers class and it was good....Then me and my friends went out and ate, watched a movie, "The Grey", then we went and talked.....It was a great evening.....

Well I am getting back on with the Town of Payson as a 911 dispatcher....I am so excited about it....I can't wait to start and maybe that will give me a better outlook on things....I guess it was a good thing to come back to Payson just like you told me in my dreams....

I am so thankful for the friends I have here.....They are true friends....It was amazing how they all came back into my life and are helping me to get through all this.....They have stood beside me and I know you would be so happy.....

Well my babes I have to get off here...I have to go and pick up some paperwork and get it filled out for my new job.....

I love you forever and ever......


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 31, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Well today is my first writing class...I hope it all goes well...I am going out with friends afterwords so it will be a good day.....

The kids are glad I am doing things....I have fun when I am out with my friends...they make me laugh and they make me realize it will all be okay.....

I will always miss you and that will never change....I will always love you forever.....I will always be your girl.....No matter what.....You will live in me forever.......

I know one day we will be together again.....that I know for sure....I know that you will wait for me and we will build a great home in the spirit world....

Walk with me babes in everything I do...I love you....


Your wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik