November 3, 2011

Tomorrow will be a month since you have passed over into the spirit world.....It does not get easier, it gets harder....Tommy, our precious daughter wrote a definition essay and she wrote it to you......So today's post is very special....I am posting the note she wrote to you....It is so beautiful.....

Shaelee:  Daddy's Girl

The love of our life

 My definition of a dad

          A dad is always protective, supportive, and loving. My dad was this way toward me. My dad passed away October 4 unexpectedly and it has been devastating for my family. I miss him but he filled the shoes of being the best dad in the world by providing the protection, support, and love only a daughter needs. 

        My dad was protective of me. He would have given his own life to protect mine. He quit work when I was born to make sure I would never be harmed. Now that is a good dad, the best. He put me before his own needs.

        No matter what, my dad supported me in everything I have ever wanted to do, even if he did not approve of it. He would explain the reasons he did not approve but left the final decision up to me. I understand why he done this. He wanted me to make my own decisions and pay the price if it was the wrong one. He taught me a lot and I am stronger for it, but even if I made the wrong decision, he would be there with his hand held out to me. 

        The love my dad showed me was unconditional love. No matter what, my dad loved me. I was and still am, "daddy's girl." He showed me what true and unconditional love means. I will never ever forget how he loved me and my family. He was the best dad you could have. 

        I miss my dad and that will never change. I love him more than anything. I know he is with the Creator and waits for me, my mom, and my brother to one day join him but until then I will hold all the protection, support, and love that he provided me inside my heart. We love you dad, forever.

                                                                                                                          Your loving daughter,

                                                                                                                                Shaelee

Daddy's Girl

I cried as I read this....It is so beautiful.....We love you Tommy forever and always....Here is our sunset....

Our Sunset

Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shaelee, & Erik

November 2, 2011

Its early morning the time that we would set and talk....We would share the day's tasks and decided what we would have for dinner....The smallest things come back to me....If time could only be redone I would go back in time just to see your face...To hear your laughter...To hear the words "I love you Linda"

Our sunset

I hear the echoes of your words...I know how much you loved me....I loved you and always will.....

Dedicated to my sweet husband, Tommy 

The launch of "Journey to Christmas Creek" started yesterday...It is dedicated to you as all my books going forward will be.....You were and are the shining light of everything I do....You always encouraged me and I will never forget that...Just as I will never forget the love we shared.....The love will last forever.....Until we meet again....then the rejoicing will be so good.....

Our sunset

I share this sunset with you as we always shared them holding hands...Love you 

Your daughter wrote a beautiful essay yesterday......I will post it soon....It is titled: My definition of a Dad....Love the title.......Wait to you hear the essay itself.....Beautiful and the love of a daughter...

Shaelee

Please my dear sweet Tommy.....visit us as much as you can....We love you and miss you more than time will stand.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

November 1, 2011

The pain never seizes and on the 4th it will be a month since you have left Mother Earth...It is so hard to believe....The pain is still there....The love is always there...You are missed so bad there are no words that can express the emptiness in my heart....

Our sunset

I often wonder what I am going to do......I feel at times I cannot do anything....Of course I hear you pushing and telling me, "Yes you can...You must.."

Our Family forever

I wonder around and think of you.....No matter what I do you are always on my mind....The kids went to the haunted house last night and Shae said it was fun.....I know that brings a smile to your face....She loves stuff like that......I know you smile when you see her smile.....She looks like you more and more each day...The eyes are identical.....

The sunset we shared together at Old San Carlos Monument

Please know we love you and miss you and nothing will ever change that.....You are us....always will be....

We love you forever.....

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 31, 2011

Thank you Tommy for coming to me in my dreams last night...I prayed to the Creator and then I ask you to come to me in my dreams....YOU DID!!!!!!!!

Our love is forever

It was so clear and it felt so right.....It was you, speaking and loving me like you always did...I felt your hands on me...I felt your breath.....You were telling me how much you loved me and I did the same....I feel in my heart that this is just one of many visits....I know you will come to me often and it will get stronger everyday.....

Our sunset

Our love is like no other...I know that.....But my heart cannot explain how happy it is.....You came to me and that helps me more than anything......I love you forever and my heart is yours.....

The kids love you and miss you but they know you are here....Shae says it all the time....
Here is something from us to you my babes:

I love you Tommy forever

It will never get any easier for us but we take comfort in knowing you are here....We love you forever...

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 30, 2011

Well Tommy another long day without you.....Sometimes it gets to be overwhelming....Most of the time I do not know what I am doing.....sometimes I cannot breath.....If only you were here.....

Cactus in the desert

I came across a beautiful poem and I have to post it here....It says things that I want to say to you.....My heart is so sad...I cannot explain the emptiness in it....Its a void that will always be.....Nothing can change....So please help me through....I know the Creator walks with me too...I am so thankful......

Credit to: Echoes from Heaven: Facebook
For my loving husband, Tommy

I see others with their spouse...Maybe its wrong but it makes me mad.....I cannot help...I miss you so....Words cannot express how I need you so.....The tears keep streaming no matter what I do.....Oh how my heart hurts so deep and true.....

Our love is forever

Please walk with me and never leave.....I need your presence every day to see me through......As long as I have the Creator and my Tommy walking with me then I will make it through......I will never be the same but I  will always love you....

Bring peace into my life, Creator 

Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 29, 2011

Yesterday I received my author's copies of "Journey to Christmas Creek" I was so pleased with the cover...
Dancing with Bear Publishing is the best publisher in the world.....The cover turned out great and the kids loved that fact, as do I, that Tommy is in the sky looking at us....I know he see's the book cover and is smiling down....He loved the fact of me writing....He encouraged me to write because he said, "Your writing is beautiful and always write."

The book cover

I love writing but now I understand what he meant....Writing can take you to another place....a wonderful place...I am currently writing a book about our lives together...I am dedicated to show to everyone what a wonderful, caring, and loving man Tommy was and still is...

The title was going to be "Soul Mates: Spirit Mates" but now Tommy has let me know that something was missing from the title so I am going with the title he sent to me in my heart and it is  "Spirit Bound: Journey of a love that transcends all time"....I was having a hard time coming up with the title but I looked up and ask Tommy to please help me decide..so now this will be the title and I love it. It fits so well and it just like him to help me name the book...I know it was him at work because he always said we were soul mates no matter here on Earth or in the spirit world......

So I would to thank Dancing with Bear Publisher, Marie MsGaha and R Jeffreys for all the hard work they do...They are amazing people and are part of my family now...We greatly appreciate everything they have done and are doing for us.....Tommy is smiling down on them for taking us and making us feel like family...

I also want to thank my wonderful kids, Shaelee 13, and Erik 23....They are my life now and I have to be strong for them....But remember kids I will have my days where I will cry for your dad...Its only because I love him so much....I know you understand...

My beautiful baby girl, Shaelee

My handsome son, Erik

Next I would like to thank Tommy for always being there for me....even now that he is in the spirit world I still  know and feel his presence....He made me who I am today and I know he loves me more than anything in the world and he will wait for me to join him....I love you my dear husband more than anything......

My loving husband, Tommy

I also must thank the Creator for allowing me the time I had with my Tommy.....I want to thank the Creator for blessing us with our kids....I want to thank the Creator for always being there for me.....and loving me unconditionally...I love you Creator with all my heart and please walk with us on this path and help us to heal....Amen.....

Our loving Creator God

Well I wanted to share with you all my blessing......

Love always and forever.....

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

October 28, 2011

Time does not matter when the love of your life is gone....I try hard to hold things together even though you are gone...You are no longer here but I feel your presence still...Please don't ever leave....Just let us know you are here...

For you my sweet husband

The pain is better some days but then there are days its unbearable....I feel like I cannot breath.....We spoke of our days when we got older and the kids all grown....The things we were going to do......I miss your face...I miss  your laughter....I miss our talks.....I miss you....

Our sunset

Trying to figure what the next step to be.....It is hard and I know you understand....I smell you and I weep for I never thought you would go......But of course none of us never would of thought this could or would happen to us....

The feeling of sadness is always present....The feeling of your presence is always growing....We know you love us and that will never change....As our love grows for you each and every day....

Taken at sacred Oak Flats Our trip holds special to me 

Please know we will always love you more than anything....Please know that one day we will see your face...We have faith in the Creator God....We know you love us more than anything....We know you will wait for us to join you no matter how long it takes....Please guide each of us with you gentle hand...Caress us and touch us as much as you can....

Our family will be forever

We love you always....

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik