January 21, 2011

Our sunset Tommy

January 21, 2012


My dearest sweet Tommy,


Well the kids loved the movie last night, Underworld......Shae was so happy to get to go to it....First time going to the movies here in Payson and she loved it.....

A flower for our love!!!!

Today is Justin's birthday and all his family and friends are missing him....I am sure you and him are having a birthday party in heaven for him.....I miss him too....He was my friend....I so enjoyed helping him with the toy drive for the Apache Reservation.....It was hard when he got killed.....But I know you know that.......

My friend Justin:  Miss you but know you are in heaven

My soul mate:  I love you and know you are in heaven looking down on me!!!!

Then I lost you......It has been the most difficult time for me and the kids.....I am having heart problems.....I miss you so very much....You are my life....Just as the kids are....

Picture from Mother Alice: Breathtaking!!!!

I pray to the Creator to watch over us and show us the path to walk......I need his hand to sweep over my body and heal me....I know he will give the doctors the knowledge to help me...With you by my side I will be okay....

Picture from Mother Alice

I love you my babes forever and ever....

Picture from Mother Alice:  Spellbinding

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 17, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I'm not doing to good today...Haven't been for several days now....Its my heart....I just don't feel good....Please help me be strong....

I pray to the Creator for this to stop and everything be okay....Let it be something that can be controlled by medication...I am scared and I need all the prayers I can get....

I know you walk with me Tommy....You will help me I know....I pray that you will help me to see how to handle this....

I know the Creator will be with me....I cannot help to be scared...My baby girl needs me and I know the Creator knows that and will make sure I am here for her.....

Well my babes I have to go for now...I have to go to the doctor because I have not been doing to good for several days.....Love you bunches...

Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 14, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Its Saturday.....Another lonely day without you....It never changes.....the loneliness and emptiness I feel....I just wish you were here....I know I say that all the time but it is so true....That is my only wish....

I am going to start a writing class here at our local library.....You  know how I wanted that so much....Especially here in Payson......

I think I will have a good turnout for the writing class....Sometimes you have to do something to keep the time going or else it stands still.....


You would be so proud of the kids.....They are sticking to me and protecting me at every angle.....You would not believe, well you would, all the people and their harassing ways....Sometimes I just don't know what to think....

Well babes just wanted to say that I love you and please walk with me on this journey....Love you more than anything.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 11, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I miss you so very much......The longing for you never stops...I talk to you and about you all the time......

The love will never cease and it will only grow stronger....Time can never change how I feel...You are the love of my life forever and always.....

You make me strong and made me the person I am today.....I will never forget all the things you taught me.....and the love you shared with me is unforgettable....

I hope you know the love for you will always be...Nothing or nobody will change that....
You are etched in my heart and soul forever.....I love you my babes....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shaelee, & Erik

January 9, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Today I go to the doctor....I am scared but you will be standing beside me I know....Creator will be there guiding the doctor as you stand with me, protecting me always....I hope that everything turns out okay.....

I know I have prayers going up from all our dear friends and family........I know the kids are scared and I ask for you to protect them Tommy....Help them by letting them know you are here....

I have a lot to be thankful for....The time we had was so special and will forever be in my soul....I love you forever...The kids were a blessing....All I wanted was you and the kids.....I wish we could have had more time here on Earth together.......

I will always love you my sweet babes...No matter what happens....You are the love of my life forever and always.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shaelee, & Erik

January 6, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,

Well today I am on Beth's blog and I am so honored...I am talking about my love for you and about my books....You are my inspiration to keep going...You are the love of my life....

My special friend Beth

Beth has done a wonderful job on the post.....I know that everything happens for a reason and one day I will know the reason...I love you my sweet Tommy.....

Here it the link to Beth's blog:     http://bethtrissel.wordpress.com   One lucky person will win a hard copy of their choice of "Blood on the Feather" or "Journey to Christmas Creek"

Also Beth posted on the blog that my work reminds her of Tony Hillerman's and that is such an honor to me....Funny because Tommy said the same thing....

I will be strong as I can be.....I just ask for you to walk this path with me and let everything be okay.....I am so scared at times and I know you want me to be okay and be here for the kids....I am trying so hard......but I know with your guiding hand I will be okay..

Well my sweets I love you more than anything......

Your loving wife and kids,

Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 4, 2011

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Sorry the post is late for today but I was admitted into the hospital yesterday because of chest pain...My heart went into tachycardia....It scared me to death.....Today is exactly 3 months since you crossed over into the spirit world....I miss you so very much....

I was on guard with the hospital.....with what happened to you my precious Tommy I am scared to death now with doctor's and hospitals.....


Shae would not leave me at the hospital....She spent the night...she even slept in the hospital bed with me....We know you were there.....

Your mom just came and visited and now she has gone home.....She is worried about me...I love you so very much and cry for you everyday.....

Please be with me and help me through....I love you my dear babes.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik


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December 30, 2011

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Well its Friday and it is suppose to be 65 degrees today here in Payson.....I miss you and I know everything will be okay.....Days are always hard....I think of you first thing when I wake up and you are on my mind all day, and then you are the last thing I think of when I lie down to go to sleep....

You are the man of a lifetime...Nobody can ever fill your shoes...You were so loving and giving and tried to find the best in every situation......You had faith about everything and you were the most honest man I have ever known.....

You gave and gave and never questioned anything.....You are my soul mate my sweet babes...If only people really knew you....The love you showed to Shae, Erik, and myself is the type of love that is never heard of.....You gave your all and we love you dearly....

No matter what you always loved me and and I always loved you....Nothing or nobody could come in and take that from us....We stayed together through it all and we won......

I want you to know just how much I am proud of you.....You showed me a life of love and I   will always remember everything you taught me about people in general and know that nobody is like you.....Never will be.....

I love you my sweet babes forever....Please be with me and watch over me like you always did.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik