March 16, 2012

To my dearest sweet Tommy,


Well we are suppose to get a major snow storm this weekend....I wonder if it will happen...I sure hope not....But if we do I know you will be here with us....Sharing the snow and its beauty...

I wish you were here but I will always wish that....I go through each day knowing that my love for you will always be....You are my life and no matter what I do in it...You are the reason for all my seasons....You are my love...my life....forever....

Life is so unfair and sometimes I wonder why...I am sure that I am not alone....Everybody wonders at some point in their life I am sure....But the most important thing is that you know I love you and you are my life....No matter what I do here on Earth....You are my life....My sun.....My everything.....

I love you my husband.....forever...


Your living wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

February 24, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Today is going to be a beautiful day.....The sun is out and beaming down on Mother Earth....I wish you were here....I miss you so very much....I love you more than anything in the world.....

Sometimes I catch myself daydreaming.....It's always about you and me.....Holding hands...talking about all the things we planned on doing.....

I just miss you so very much....I hope you know just how much I love you....I always will.....Nothing will ever change that.....

Well got to go for now...I love you my babes....Forever and always....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 20, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I am so excited and cannot wait to share this information....Late yesterday afternoon Tommy materialized in my mirror....It was for a brief moment but long enough for me to see his smiling face.....I am so blessed I cannot control my happiness....

His image was as vivid as the sun....There was a glow that surrounded his body but he was in full form....It made me feel so much better.....I knew he was with me but it does truly help for me to see him...

The night before that he came to me in my dreams....Telling me that he loved me forever and that he was okay....Saying he wanted me to get strong and fight because the kids needed me and that he would wait for me no matter how long it took.....

I already knew these things but it truly helped to hear him say this....I know he is okay and that he is with the Creator.....

I am truly blessed getting to see my Tommy and I know he will always be with us....


Love you my babes and please walk every step with me on this journey......

I love you with all my heart....forever and always.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 19, 2012

My family

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I had another bad night last night....My heart was racing and my blood pressure was high....I could not go to sleep....Finally I did around 1:30.....I just pray this will stop.....

Photo by Mother Alice

I have no clue what to do when this happens....Everybody says to calm down but how in the world can somebody calm down when their heart is racing over 100 beats per minute.....I don't get it....

Photo by Mother Alice

My dear Mother Alice is in the hospital.....I pray for her speedy recovery...She is like a mother to me....Precious as can be....

Mother Alice

The kids are going to see Underworld tomorrow night...Shae cannot wait to see it....It will be her first time going to the movies here....She is so excited....

Photo by Mother Alice

Shae has been giving an opportunity that might turn into a singing career.....That is all I can say for now but she is very excited.....She loves her music and singing......

Photo by Mother Alice

Well my babes I am going to go for now....Please walk with me today and let me have a good day without any heart racing events.....

Photo by Mother Alice

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 18, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I went to the doctor and they increased my medication.....I wish all of this would just stop....I know you are with me and everything will be okay......I go to the cardiologist next week....

I am starting a writing class here in Payson.....I named it finally.....Rim Country Creative Writers.....I really like the name.....

I talk to you often and I wish you were here..I know that one day we will be together for eternity....You are waiting on me and that is okay.....You know I am needed here to take care of our precious kids......

I love you more than anything and our bond will always be....Your mom is suppose to come up this week and see us...She states I have a broken heart and that is so true....You are the love of my life and I will miss you forever....I know the Creator will bring us back together and that is what keeps me going......of course the kids are the major focus here....They need me and we both know that so we will wait....

Well guess I am going to go for now...I love you forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 13, 2012

My dearest sweet Tommy,


I just wanted to say hello and that I love you so very much....Last night Erik went to a search and rescue meeting with Rodney and he loves it....He is going to join.....On Saturday they are having a training at Shoofly and he is attending....Rodney is so glad that he loves it....

Today is another day of missing you....We love you so very much....In time, I hope everything works out.....I know you are guiding us and that everything will be okay......

Our kids are amazing but of course with them being your kids it does not surprise me....I will always love you and I know you know that....I am still waiting to get in to see the cardiologist....Insurance takes forever to get an approval.....

Well my babes....I am getting off here for now....I love you forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,


Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 12, 2012

Sunset for my Tommy

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Life has been hard on me for awhile now....I hope it stops and gets a little easier....I feel so lost and confused some times.....I feel alone a lot....If life could go back to the way it was....I would be so happy....

Our sunsets

I dream of you and think I will wake to your loving face.....To hear your voice once again would make my day.....I know we will be together for eternity someday.... In the meantime....you wait for me and that is okay because I have to take care of Shae for awhile for us....

Our sunsets

Here is a poem for my love.......
I love you more 
than words can say
If only we had more time to share
our love and laughter 
then it would be fair 
Life can be so hard 
but with you
by my side
I can strive to life
and make you proud
Just remember my love 
will never die
I love you more 
Until the end of time

Our sunsets

Well my babes, I am going to go for now....I love you dearly and forever....

Our sunsets

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

January 10, 2012

To my dearest sweet Tommy,


Please walk with me today and every day....My heart is racing so bad lately....Is it due to  a broken heart......Sometimes I think it is....Please sit with me...walk with me....Help me through this my babes.....

I went to the doctor and my blood pressure was high and my heart rate was high so I was prescribed medication to assist with that....now waiting on insurance to approve visit to cardiologist.....

So please keep the prayers coming....I know the Creator will help me....I know Tommy will help me too....It is so scary and at times I wish I could just stop all of this.....

I pray that everybody will pray for me because prayers do work....I want to thank every one who has prayed for me....I never imagined there would be a time I would be dealing with such grief....I cannot explain how I feel...All I can say is that I love Tommy more than anything.....

Well babes, getting off here for now....Love you more and more each day....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shaelee, & Erik