Lessons Learned

My dear precious husband Tommy,


You are in my soul...You are always on my mind...I love you more than life itself....You showed me what love is all about....Giving me your love and showing me that all you wanted in return was my love....I gave you all I have....I will love you forever......

A dear friend wrote a touching poem for me....really for us...It touched my heart so I have to post it here...Her name is Renee Roman Nose and I love her dearly....Here is the poem...

Renee

Forever Kind of Love

1. 
   For Melinda Elmore
   
   He lives in her dreams
   Forever young, forever loving, forever strong
   
   Their home is haunted with memories
   Laughter, tears, love, ah, the love lingers so
   Strong, so very deep
   Buried in the foundation of their home
   Blossomed into the rafters
   Woven into the shingles shedding the rain
   That fell on their lives
   Warm and safe in the hearts and arms of one another
   
   He lives in her dreams
   Forever young, forever loving, forever strong
   
   His voice calls to her
   Catching her unaware
   Piercing her heart
   With a longing only she can feel
   An aching loneliness words cannot express
   His arms wrap around her once more
   So very gently
   That she feels them only in her heart
   
   He lives in her dreams
   Forever young, forever loving, forever strong.
   
   Renee Roman Nose
   April 5, 2010

   
   

   Thank you my dear friend....I have been going through a hard time...April 4th was 6 months since my precious husband, Tommy crossed over into the spirit world....You are a dear friend and I love you dearly...

   

   
   

   Well my precious Tommy the poem is very touching and I love it....

   
   

   I love you my husband forever.......

   
   

   Your loving wife and kids,

   Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Easter Weekend

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


This weekend is Easter....Its beautiful here on the Rim....I love living here....Its an amazing place.....

I miss you so much but I know you will be here with us always....I know that time is not helping anything....I am learning to cope.....I have made a lot of friends....who are helping me to deal with the sadness....

My writing group is just amazing....I have made so many friends its unreal...They are true friends..They care about me and the kids.....They talk and send me emails, texts, etc letting me know I am loved....That means so much to me.....

I know you love me Tommy as I love you always....You are everything to me...I miss you so much...You are always in my heart.....

I love you my babes....Forever......


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Your not just a memory

My dear sweet husband Tommy,


I want you to know that you are not just a memory....You are in my heart and soul.....I speak your name always....You are me....You will always be with me....

There is never a moment I don't think of how our love was and still is....I love you always....You will always be part of me....You are my seasons.....You always will be.....

No matter where life takes me you will always be in my heart....You were with me for a long time....We went to  the prom together.....What a romantic time we had...I remember spilling some kind of drink on my dress....We left early because we wanted to be alone.....It was the best night in the world....Spending it with you...

I love you my babes.....Forever......


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

6 months today

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Today is six months since you crossed over into the spirit world.....It is so hard wanting you here and of course you can't be......I wish that you were.....

Time goes by quickly but then slowly too.....I mean I can't believe its been six months but then as much as I miss you it seems like it has been a lot longer......Time is time I guess but I know you are with me....

We walk and talk a lot....you and I....even with you in the spirit world...I need you with me as I walk this journey on earth...There are people who tell me I should do this or shouldn't be doing that.....I just don't know how they could know what is right or wrong....for they don't walk in my moccasins....

Please my dear Tommy come to me in my dreams and guide me on what to do...Make sure you let me know if I am going down the right road and how you feel about it....I need to know from you then I don't care what others say.....

Well my babes....I think of you always and love you the same......


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Missing you

My dearest sweet precious Tommy,


Another day without your presence...It is so hard to know what to do....I miss you more than anything in the world....My heart cries for you all the time...I think of you and my hearts hurts even more....You are constantly on my mind.....

I know that someday we will be together again....Tomorrow will be six months since you went to heaven....It is so hard for me to accept it...I know I have to.....For our precious kids.....I want you here when we get our first grandchild.....Its so unfair but life is unfair....

My heart weeps like the weeping willow.....It is pulled and swayed at every gust of wind....Will it ever get any easier? I really don't think so....Just know I love you more than anything in the world....You are my life....forever......

I love you my babes....Forever.....Walk with me every day.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Just another day!!!!!

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you so much....There is never a moment I don't think of you.....My heart is so broken...I need you to know that I love you and need you so much.....

You are with me....I feel your presence around me guiding me all the time....You are the light of my life...You are everything to me....I wish you were here but I know one day we will be together again....

How could this have happened? I mean you are gone.....I want you here....I need you here....I know that one day we will be together again for eternity.....I will hold you and show you the love in my heart....Just please know I love you and always will....

I love you my babes!!!!!....Forever........


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Another day without you

My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Its going to be nice today...We will probably go for a walk at the park....Nobody know how much I miss you....Sometimes the pain is so great I can hardly take it....I speak to the kids and let them know how I feel but I know they really don't understand the pain in my heart....

I wish I could explain what is going on inside me but I can't...Nobody will ever understand...I need to let everybody know that this is the hardest thing in the world for me....Can my kids understand.....I don't think so....Anyway I will pray about this....I will pray for their dad to let them see my heart and that I will always love him.....

It's hard being lonely....It's heard dealing with all the day to day things by yourself...I do it for who? My kids that I know will stand beside me no matter what I do? I know my kids are the best kids in the whole world...They always will be..I love you Shae and Erik......Please know that...

Well my babes I am getting off here for now...I love you.....always.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik