January 15, 2012

January 15, 2012


My dearest sweet Tommy,


It is cloudy here today....It says some snow tomorrow....Well I had a good night's sleep....First in awhile.....You must have had your arms around me....

I miss you so very much....Beth helps me deal with helping me to cope...She is such a dear friend to me....She understands grief and the pain I am going through....Its as if she completely understands the pain and she doesn't run away from me.....I love her dearly......

I talk to you everyday....Trying my best to keep my head on straight....Not losing everything inside me....I am going to start a writing class at the library.....You know how I love to try and help other writers......

Well the pain still lingers....Always will I know...but you will take my hand and guide me through....You always do.....the love we share transcends all time....I love you forever and always....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

December 19, 2011

My dear sweet babes, Tommy,


I am just sitting here looking out the window at the fog...It is 34 degrees but no snow...Anyway I was at your urn speaking to you and I know you will guide me.....

The kids are the greatest kids in the world...but of course they are because they are yours...You are the best man in the world.....You always would find the best in every situation.....Nobody could solve issues better than you...You are amazing to me.....

I keep thinking about Christmas and how you are not here in the physical form...It is going to be so hard....Please wrap your arms around me that day just to let me know that its okay....and that you are here....always....

I can only pray that everything will be okay....I mean, life is hard...and now that you are not in my life, its even harder.....Please guide me the right way....

I love you always my dear sweet husband.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

December 14, 2011

My dearest sweet Tommy,


Good morning, my love....It is still snowing and it so beautiful...Time never takes away the pain...Sometimes I feel I am over come with grief....I hear you whisper my name.....Only time remains here....

Erik's hike

I talk to you like you are standing here...but I know you are...Please help me in everyday tasks and for going on in life...It is the hardest thing to do....

Picture from Mother Alice

What has life got in store for me.....Only time will tell but I hope to make the right decisions and go forward....Sometimes its hard to know if the decision you make is a good one....I pray you will guide me down that path.....

Picture from Mother Alice

Feather is doing good....you taught that cat to much.....I know she wonders where you are....but I am sure she can see you when you are here....

Feather

I bet you are busy in heaven.....You are one special angel.....Sometimes I wonder what you do there but then I think he is probably helping his dad and taking care of the children....you were the best dad......

Erik's Hike

Well just wanted to share my feelings with you....I know you hear me and will stay close....Remember our love will never die....I will always love you no matter what life brings.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik