Another friend passed away....

My dear precious husband Tommy,


Well my heart was hurt yesterday afternoon when I heard a friend had passed away unexpectedly in TN. I know you would remember Ronnie he was a deputy at the Sheriffs Office and I worked with him...then he got on as a Tennessee Highway Patrol Officer....
He will be missed and I cant believe it....

Time never heals wounds...It only gives a way to hide them....They are always there...Ronnie was dating Molly and babes I know you knew her too...I know her heart is broke....But what can you do....I am here for you Molly...

Well babes just know I love you no matter what...You are my soul mate and always will be...You are loved and missed so much every day....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Pictures of our daughter....

My dear precious husband Tommy,


We miss you so much....As I sat here I think of how much our daughter is like you...She went and had her hair streaked....Something you promised her she could do when she got 14.....

She is so proud of it...Currently it is black on one side and purple/bluish on the other...I will be posting her pictures here today just for you....

I have never seen a father and daughter as close as you two were and still are...When we decided that you would stay at home with her to protect her was the best decision we ever made...We love you so much...Its not fair that you are gone ...

I love you my precious husband.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

July 4th pictures....

My dear precious husband Tommy,


The kids loved the fireworks at Green Valley Park last night...There were a lot of people there but it was still fun...Shaelee loved it as the night closed in and the fireworks show began....Shae got her hair done...She has a black strip and a purple/bluish strip....She is beautiful........

I know you already know this my babes but Eddie and Michael Spears lost their father yesterday (4th) and I know it will be hard for them.....I know how difficult it is to lose somebody whom you love so much....My prayers go up for them...They lost their father on the 4th of July and we lost you on the 4th of October so we have something in common.....the 4th of the month and my kids losing their father on same day just a different month....

Please come and visit me in my dreams more often...I love you so much and always will...

You are the reason for my every season....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Nine Months today.....

My dear sweet precious husband Tommy,


Today is nine months since you crossed over into the spirit world....My pain is the same....Will never die...I  am learning to cope with it...My heart is still bleeding and always will.....

I will love you forever...It will not be a very good day for me....Our first July 4th without you...It will be hard to watch the fireworks without you standing there with us...but I know you will be there in spirit....

Our daughter got a blue/purple and black strips in her hair...She loves it...I will take pictures today and put them on here of her...She is so pretty....

My babes walk with me today and hold me at all times....I love you more than anything....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Looking Back......

My dear precious husband Tommy,


Looking back at everything my heart is wondering why everything happens the way it does? I pray some day I will understand.....I want you here so we can be together.....

I will never stop longing for you.....You are my spirit....my being...my everything....I know you will guide me in the right direction....I pray that it will all be okay.....You have always sent me in the right direction and I want you to know you are my everything...

I love you and always will...You are my road to happiness and my road to me....


I love you my dear husband forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Taking a stand.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,


Taking a stand....what does that mean.....well to me it meant standing up for what I believe in...I done that very thing yesterday and now I feel better for it....

Tomorrow is the day before the 4th of July.....Our first 4th without you here....It is so hard....I remember our first 4th of July...You are the sexiest thing I had ever seen....and you still are....

I will always remember that July 4th.....I loved you then as I love you now... I could not wait to tell you...Yes I was scared but I had to tell you......I miss you so much....My heart is so empty.....But my love for you and kids will always be....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Loves boundaries....

My dear precious husband Tommy,


Love boundaries....what does that mean....All I know is there is no boundaries for loving you....I will love you forever....nothing can change that...Life is so lonely without you in it....

I know the move to Payson was the right thing for us....I just wish you could have been here with us...You would like it a lot better....But I know you are with us....

My heart can fill you walking with me...I am so thankful for that....You are my life....my soul mate....You and only you....

I love you my babes...forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik