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Saturday, March 31, 2012

Missing you


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you so very much...There are times that I am not sure if I am doing the right thing....I hope I do as the kids will understand.....I love them more than anything and I want them to know that....


I wish you were here...I really do...Things would be so different....You would be here and I would be so happy....You are the person I love more than anything.....Always will.....


You will always be in my heart...I have to be happy I know that for me to get strong and be here for the kids...My heart has been breaking so bad here lately......Please show me the way to go with everything...I love you and always will....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Friday, March 30, 2012

Miss you


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


It is another beautiful day in Payson....I truly believe it is God's Country because the beauty that it holds...It holds a lot of memories for us....I can see you here...Working at Payson Ice...Even though it does not exist anymore....the signs still hang there and the fence does too...


You loved that job....I remember coming into town seeing you before I started work at the sheriff's office....You worked days, I worked nights but it did not matter to us.....We loved each other every moment we got......That is what mattered.....


You brought so much joy into my life....I will never ever forget the times we shared...How you made me laugh....and the love we shared is so remarkable.....I love you my babes....


Well gonna get off here.....I love you....forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Thursday, March 29, 2012



My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


You are so missed....Nobody will ever understand just how much....You are the love our my life and always will be....I will always love you more than anything.....


I miss you and your tender touch...the way you could always make me feel better...the way you would tell me how much you love me....and you always were there for us.....


You are the most amazing man I have ever known....You know how to rock my boat....You always did and always will...Please visit me in my dreams and talk with me....Letting me know how you what you think about everything....


You will always be in my heart and soul....


I love you.....forever....


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Always my love.....



My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Time is the same....Missing you in every way.....I will never get over all of this...I wonder why you had to go.....I always will....I know you are in heaven and as the children come there you are one of the one's who are there to help them to cross over...I can see you taking care of them all....


You are so special to me....You are the reason for everything I do...I want you to know I will always love you....You are the focus for everything....I need to see you often so please come to me in my dreams...I do ask you to please always visit me in some form....


It's going to be nice here today...Suppose to be in the 70's and sunny....I love those temperatures....I hope that you can see that you are the best thing that ever happened to me....You made me who I am now.....


Well I guess I will go for now...I love you my babes....forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Another day without you....



My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I love you more than ever....You are on my mind.....every second.....You are my breath....the wind that blows tells me that you are with me.....


You are the reason for everything I do...You get me to realize that my work on earth is not complete yet....I have a lot to do....But knowing one day I will be with you again for eternity is the greatest gift in the world.....


Today I have my writing class....they are all excited because of the anthology we are putting together.....Today we pick a title.......


I know you are sitting there laughing and saying..."Her and her big heart..." You know how I love to help people....It is just my way.....


Remember I love you Tommy and you are my life...forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Monday, March 26, 2012

March 26, 2012


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you so very much....Life isn't the same without you here.....It will never be the same either.....You are my life...Nobody can say they understand because you can't unless you have walked in my moccasins....


I love you more than anything...Words can never express it to the fullest extent....but words can show everyone how I truly feel....I wish we had more time together...I guess I will always feel that way....You are my soul mate.....always....


I love you my sweet husband and nothing will ever change that....nothing.....Remember that always....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Sunday, March 25, 2012

March 25, 2012


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you so very much....I wish you were here and that we were sharing our lives together....I will always wish that...You mean more to me then anything in the world...


I hope that someday all the hurt and pain will cease.....to some extent....anyway....I love you more than anything in the world and always will....You are my heart and soul.....Always....


I had fun at the Casino with my friends last night.....I know that makes you happy for all you ever wanted for me was to be happy....I was happy when I was with you....You brought me the happiest time in my life sharing everything with you....


I love you my babes forever.....


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Saturday, March 24, 2012

March 24, 2012


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


You are so missed by us....You are the light in our life...We love and miss you so much....Sometimes life seems so unfair and we wonder why things are as they are.....Not that we are questioning anything but we just wonder.....


Time has a way of giving us false hope...Like you will come back one day...That I am going to open the door and there you are....I only wish that could happen...How I long to see you and wish you were here....Words will never say how much I miss you so....


I cry a lot wanting you to come back....I pray at times that you will....But I know you can't because if that was the case then you would have been back the moment you had to leave...You loved us more than anything in the world....I know that...You would have gave up everything if that is what it would take.....Remember I love you my husband and no matter what happens on this earth that will never change.....You are my soul mate.....


I love you.....Forever....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Friday, March 23, 2012

March 23, 2012


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Can words ever express the way that I feel since losing you? No I do not think so.....But I know you understand how much I do....You are everything to me....Its so sad that all of this had to happen...I wish you were here so I could hold you and tell you all my things that make me tick....But you know those things....you always did....


I am going to the Casino tonight with my friend Peggy....She is in my writing class and I love her to death....She is such a good friend and she ask me to go with her tonight...I have made a lot of new friends now....I am so thankful for them....


Moving to Payson was the best thing I could have done....You came to me in my dreams and told me to.....You always knew what was best....Words cannot express how much I miss you...But I know you understand the longing I have for you....


Well my babes going to go for now....I love you with all my heart....Forever!!!


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Thursday, March 22, 2012

March 22, 2012


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


How I long to hold your hand and watch the sunsets cascading down on mother earth.....The times we would go riding around just to watch the sunsets.....Oh this brings joy to my heart....


I long to hold you close and whisper in your ear....I would love to be able to say "I love you babes" as I always did.....I still do these things but in a different way...I have no words for how my heart hurts...I try to focus on something else but sometimes thinking of you overtakes everything else....


I can never express how much I love you...Words cannot fill that space.....I wish you were here but so do the kids...They know how much I miss you.....They see the tears that flow....the anger in me.....the longing for their dad is so obvious......


I love you my babes....Forever


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

March 21, 2012


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Soon it will be 6 months since you crossed over into the spirit world...That is so hard to believe...You must know that I long for you everyday....I weep like a baby every day for you....


You are my constant thinking....I talk to you and I speak your name all the time....You are in my soul all the time...You are what gives me the strength to carry on....I know you would want me to do all the things I planned on doing.....Every book I write is for you.....


You are my everything...Always will be....I love you more than love but that is the only word there is....I promise you to make you proud of me....I love you my babes....forever and always....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

March 30, 2012


To my dearest sweet husband Tommy,


Another day without you here breaks my heart into....I don't think it will ever get any easier....You are the core to my being....I try so hard but yet the emptiness that resides in my soul just lingers.....


There is a void that nobody can ever fill.....You are the reason for everything I do....You showed me love....You showed me what it was like for a person to have complete, unconditional love....


You are the reason I do what I do......Our kids know how much I love you and think of you....I cry everyday....I will for the rest of my life....The void will never be filled.....It can't unless it was you....I do feel you in spirit....I know you are with me..always.....


I love you my babes....forever!!!


Your loving wife and kids, 
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Monday, March 19, 2012

March 19, 2012


My dearest sweet husband Tommy,


I miss you so much....I found myself crying a lot yesterday...Its as if all this just happened yesterday....Nothing will ever be the same for me....I will always be unhappy for the loss of you is so great.....


People need to step back and think about the ones who mean the most to them....They can be gone in a blink of an eye....You never really think about it but it is always there.....


I love our kids Tommy so much....I am always afraid and I seem to cry a lot......I need to chill out and take it one day at a time but sometimes it gets overwhelming and I just lose it....


It snowed here in Payson....It's pretty and I don't have to travel in it so I don't mind it....Well I guess I will go for now....I love you my babes.....Forever.....


Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik