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Monday, October 31, 2011

October 31, 2011

Thank you Tommy for coming to me in my dreams last night...I prayed to the Creator and then I ask you to come to me in my dreams....YOU DID!!!!!!!!




Our love is forever

It was so clear and it felt so right.....It was you, speaking and loving me like you always did...I felt your hands on me...I felt your breath.....You were telling me how much you loved me and I did the same....I feel in my heart that this is just one of many visits....I know you will come to me often and it will get stronger everyday.....


Our sunset
Our love is like no other...I know that.....But my heart cannot explain how happy it is.....You came to me and that helps me more than anything......I love you forever and my heart is yours.....

The kids love you and miss you but they know you are here....Shae says it all the time....
Here is something from us to you my babes:

I love you Tommy forever


It will never get any easier for us but we take comfort in knowing you are here....We love you forever...

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

Sunday, October 30, 2011

October 30, 2011

Well Tommy another long day without you.....Sometimes it gets to be overwhelming....Most of the time I do not know what I am doing.....sometimes I cannot breath.....If only you were here.....

Cactus in the desert


I came across a beautiful poem and I have to post it here....It says things that I want to say to you.....My heart is so sad...I cannot explain the emptiness in it....Its a void that will always be.....Nothing can change....So please help me through....I know the Creator walks with me too...I am so thankful......

Credit to: Echoes from Heaven: Facebook
For my loving husband, Tommy

I see others with their spouse...Maybe its wrong but it makes me mad.....I cannot help...I miss you so....Words cannot express how I need you so.....The tears keep streaming no matter what I do.....Oh how my heart hurts so deep and true.....


Our love is forever


Please walk with me and never leave.....I need your presence every day to see me through......As long as I have the Creator and my Tommy walking with me then I will make it through......I will never be the same but I  will always love you....

Bring peace into my life, Creator 
Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

Saturday, October 29, 2011

October 29, 2011

Yesterday I received my author's copies of "Journey to Christmas Creek" I was so pleased with the cover...
Dancing with Bear Publishing is the best publisher in the world.....The cover turned out great and the kids loved that fact, as do I, that Tommy is in the sky looking at us....I know he see's the book cover and is smiling down....He loved the fact of me writing....He encouraged me to write because he said, "Your writing is beautiful and always write."

The book cover
I love writing but now I understand what he meant....Writing can take you to another place....a wonderful place...I am currently writing a book about our lives together...I am dedicated to show to everyone what a wonderful, caring, and loving man Tommy was and still is...

The title was going to be "Soul Mates: Spirit Mates" but now Tommy has let me know that something was missing from the title so I am going with the title he sent to me in my heart and it is  "Spirit Bound: Journey of a love that transcends all time"....I was having a hard time coming up with the title but I looked up and ask Tommy to please help me decide..so now this will be the title and I love it. It fits so well and it just like him to help me name the book...I know it was him at work because he always said we were soul mates no matter here on Earth or in the spirit world......







So I would to thank Dancing with Bear Publisher, Marie MsGaha and R Jeffreys for all the hard work they do...They are amazing people and are part of my family now...We greatly appreciate everything they have done and are doing for us.....Tommy is smiling down on them for taking us and making us feel like family...



I also want to thank my wonderful kids, Shaelee 13, and Erik 23....They are my life now and I have to be strong for them....But remember kids I will have my days where I will cry for your dad...Its only because I love him so much....I know you understand...

My beautiful baby girl, Shaelee

My handsome son, Erik

Next I would like to thank Tommy for always being there for me....even now that he is in the spirit world I still  know and feel his presence....He made me who I am today and I know he loves me more than anything in the world and he will wait for me to join him....I love you my dear husband more than anything......

My loving husband, Tommy
I also must thank the Creator for allowing me the time I had with my Tommy.....I want to thank the Creator for blessing us with our kids....I want to thank the Creator for always being there for me.....and loving me unconditionally...I love you Creator with all my heart and please walk with us on this path and help us to heal....Amen.....

Our loving Creator God

Well I wanted to share with you all my blessing......

Love always and forever.....

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

Friday, October 28, 2011

October 28, 2011

Time does not matter when the love of your life is gone....I try hard to hold things together even though you are gone...You are no longer here but I feel your presence still...Please don't ever leave....Just let us know you are here...


For you my sweet husband

The pain is better some days but then there are days its unbearable....I feel like I cannot breath.....We spoke of our days when we got older and the kids all grown....The things we were going to do......I miss your face...I miss  your laughter....I miss our talks.....I miss you....

Our sunset
Trying to figure what the next step to be.....It is hard and I know you understand....I smell you and I weep for I never thought you would go......But of course none of us never would of thought this could or would happen to us....

The feeling of sadness is always present....The feeling of your presence is always growing....We know you love us and that will never change....As our love grows for you each and every day....

Taken at sacred Oak Flats Our trip holds special to me 

Please know we will always love you more than anything....Please know that one day we will see your face...We have faith in the Creator God....We know you love us more than anything....We know you will wait for us to join you no matter how long it takes....Please guide each of us with you gentle hand...Caress us and touch us as much as you can....

Our family will be forever
We love you always....

Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

Thursday, October 27, 2011

October 27, 2011

There are no words to explain the way we are all feeling....We try to stay strong for one another...It is so hard to live without you.....I pray for all who have lost a spouse or child....It has to be the hardest thing ever to deal with...

Our sunset

I have learned in this process you go from crying to anger then back to crying....Everywhere you look your reminded of something from your loved one...

I know Tommy is in a beautiful place with no pain but I still miss him dearly...There is not a day that does not go by that he is not in the forefront of what I am doing...I try and focus on the good times but somehow the day we lost him is so vivid and compelling that it is also feeling my mind....
Sunset for Tommy

I would like to tell you just how great a man he was....He protected me from the world...If people tried to upset me he would take me under his arms and hug me and say, "Don't let others misery cloud your judgment. The reason they attack you is because they have a sad life and nobody really cares about them." Then he was there in guidance of our son...He would try and talk to him but you know teenagers they know it all. But now our son realizes that his dad was right and was only trying to help him to see the real world..When our daughter was born my wonderful Tommy decided that nobody was good enough to watch her....So he quit his job and took care of her...He done a remarkable job like no dad I have ever seen....He was with her all the 13 years....He explained everything to her and always was honest about the way the world is....
He told me that "I love you Linda more than life itself...I have never experience love until I met you.... You are my world and I will love you always and forever and nothing will ever change that...He proved it over and over every day....I love and miss my husband and words cannot explain the feeling in my heart....

Sunset for our love 
We miss him terribly and we do not know what to do.....Everything is centered around our loss....He is in our mind every minute of everyday...Always will be...We love you Tommy....

Linda, Shae, & Erik

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

October 26, 2011

I long to see your face....I long to hear your voice...There is an emptiness in our house now that you are gone.....The pain hurts and the crying never ceases.....Our hearts are full of pain and love for the only person who understood us......

Sunset for you Tommy


I have to be strong....I must carry on.....But know my precious Tommy that no matter how far I go or what is happening in my life... you are with me and that will never change....


I know someday we will unite and our family will once again be together....but its hard for us here on Mother Earth while you are soaring on Father Sky.....
Our sunset


The wind is our brother....He lets me hear your whispers....I know you are here watching over us.....


I remember the first time I saw you....Your smile...Your face....I wanted to share with you my life but was so afraid....You made it easy for me to show you my love.....You showed me unconditional love....You put your arms around me.....I felt an instant rush.....The whispers of your voice...revealing your tender love...The way you would comfort me and show me the right path....You kept me strong and would not let me falter.....So here is to our love which will always be....For our love for one another is unconditionally...We are soul mates....We are spirit mates....Remember, we, your family....love you more each and every day..
Sunset
I am working on a book about our life together: I titled it yesterday and the kids loved it...I hope you do too....


Title of our Book together...Forever
"Soul Mates: Spirit Mates"


Our love will remain
Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

October 25, 2011

What can we do? We miss you and always will.....Life is full of happiness but ours seemed so few and far in between....We never got to tell you all the things we had in our hearts because we thought we would have you for at least another twenty or so years....People love what you have and never let it go....

Arizona Sunset


Shaelee is only 13 and she misses her dad so bad....She mourns for him and wants him back....She knows he is with her every minute of every day but that does not make it any easier.....She longs for him to be by her side, teasing and poking her side....He always would bug her about watching football with him and it would make her smile.....If only they had more time to share together is the only wish Shae has.....She loves her dad and misses him so much...Forever.....



Shaelee

Erik is trying to be so strong.....He is keeping the promise he made to his dad....To take care of me and Shae and his dad would be so proud....He misses him and loves him so very bad......If only they had more time to share the true feelings that they had.....He loves his dad and misses him so much....Forever.....

Erik

Now as far as me.....well its the same....I miss the talks..the laughs....the love we shared....If only we had more time there were so much I have to say....I speak your name and tell you everything...I ask you for guidance and to show me the path.....It is hard and it will never get any easier....I will miss you forever....I know you are in heaven making a home for us.....You are in no pain and that is a blessing.....You are my soul mate and that will never change....My love for you is unconditional and will remain....Until we meet again, my love...Know you are in my heart......I love and miss you so much...Time will never erase....Forever...

Your loving wife
So here is a picture of a breathtaking sunset.....It represents our family and the love we shared and continue to share....Forever

Our love...Forever...

Your loving wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

Monday, October 24, 2011

October 24, 2011

Another morning without your beautiful, loving face......I wish could hold you and hear your loving words.......You are always with us and that will never changed.....

Here is a beautiful letter that was sent to me from a friend but I know it was sent from you.....

A letter from Tommy and the Creator


We will always love and miss you!!!!!

You are with us, we know that....











Love you always!!!!!
Your loving wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

Sunday, October 23, 2011

October 23, 2011

Tommy we are still in disbelief....Shae is having a hard time....I am getting her to talk and tell me her fears....She misses you more than anything in the world but we all do.....People say  that it will get easier but just as me and your daughter talked and we know that is not true....We were close as a family and the pain will never go away....

Arizona Sunset for Tommy


Our son went out hiking just so he could take some pictures of sunsets for you.....There are times we feel we cannot go on then we know you are there pushing us....Between the help of you and the Creator we know we are stronger but we miss you all the same....

Arizona: Hiking Trail


People can be mean but we have learned they are the ones with the problem and we ignore them....Still the pain will never cease....We know that you are here and that you see and hear all things....We ask for your guidance in everything we do....The Creator needed you and we understand that but the pain and feeling of loss and empty remain.....

Beautiful sunset


I try to be strong for the kids but sometimes I lose it too....I feel your presence everywhere I go and in everything I do....That is what gives me the strength to carry on.....I cry for you and the kids cry for you....Just know you will travel every road and every path that we encounter....

Sunset


Please I pray for the Creator and you my precious Tommy to show me and guide me in the direction I need to go.....Show me the path on this journey so I can make the right decisions...Protect us and bound us with love and comfort.....In everything we do we will give our all to the Creator and we pray that our love will only grow stronger for all people.....We love you Creator and we love Tommy....Amen

Beautiful Sunset
One special prayer was given today by a friend on Facebook...It is beautiful and breathtaking...Thank you my friend.....
God never makes a mistake'He lulled me to sleep and I could not awake-He took me away from toil and strife-To fulfill His promise of a better life-God is a good God all the time-He pacified my troubled mind-When He ended my earthly lease-He directed me to Heaven to rest in peace-God sent an angel to lead the way-To preclude the possibility of me going astray-I gave God praises and was not ashamed-To magnify His holy name-I followed God's footprints in the sand-Suddenly He reached back and grabbed my hand-He said "Have faith my child you have won the race-Having faith paid off,your in a better place-Where there are no more heartaches,pain or stress....My faithful servant,come and take your rest " ............may he rest in peace and God bless you and the children
The beauty of Mother Nature


Love your wife and kids,

Linda, Shae, & Erik

Saturday, October 22, 2011

October 22, 2011

Another day without you here, I just cannot comprehend that you are gone....I know it is in physical form but spiritually  you are here with us....When we went to Roosevelt Lake I felt you presence and sure enough I found proof....In this photo see the purple spot on the right lower hand corner....I know that is you....You promised always to stay with us and you are......

Look at the purple ORB in the lower right hand corner-Its Tommy


When I noticed this my heart leaped in bounds...I knew it was you....My heart realized no matter where we go you will travel with us.....I ask for a sign that you were here and I got it.....



Roosevelt Lake


Life is empty without you....There is a void that will never be replaced......You are the love of my life and I will carry you with me forever......I speak your name....I cry your name....Its so unreal and should have never happened...I try to focus but its so hard......



Roosevelt Lake


They say it gets easier with time.....I know it will never get easier for us....We live your name...We are proud of being your family....I know that you were the best man in the world....No other like you......Never will be....




So, just remember we live....we breath.....YOU

We love you forever.....Miss you the same....

Your loving wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik

Friday, October 21, 2011

October 21, 2011

Another day dawns without your loving face.....My friend and co-worker Judy, bless her heart Tommy, wanted to take me and kids to Roosevelt Lake yesterday....I know it was your favorite place.....We went and I felt your presence...It was a feeling I will never forget.....There were times I would cry.....

Roosevelt Lake in AZ


The kids loved it....Shaelee could not believe what she was seeing....I thought of you the whole time because I know that we had planned on going there and taking Shae....You wanted to show her the world....Finally she had a smile on her face when we talked about us being there so many years ago.....It was heart wrenching to see her smile and it was like looking at you.....

Shaelee at Roosevelt Lake

Tommy We love you




Erik at Roosevelt Lake


Melinda at Roosevelt Lake



I know that you are with us and so you know of all the attacks falling upon me by our so called family members....I am holding strong and fighting each and every one of them.....Sometimes it makes me sick to see them attack us just because you are not here....They were afraid to while you were alive....Now what does that say about such people...Do not worry I will fight tooth and nail against them.....I know that all my  life this happened to me until you entered my life...but it all ceased when you were here...They all knew better...but like you and your daughter would say.. "They can build a bridge, and get over it"








Here is the bridge for them

Anyway, I wanted to share today some of the pictures from Roosevelt Lake...It is in your honor and we love you forever....



Roosevelt Lake AZ


Your wife and kids,
Linda, Shae, & Erik